What is the secret to happiness? |
I suppose it boils down to this: is the grass greener on the other side of the fence? You'll be amazed how many people actually do believe that the grass isn't as green on their side of the fence. The first thing I want to point out is that very few people actually just do one thing and not the other. For example, I have two bosses - an American and a Kiwi. My American boss has a keen interest in martial arts and will go for plenty of martial arts lessons after office hours and during the weekend. My Kiwi boss plays in a band (bass guitar and drums mostly) and that occupies most of his free time. It is not like their entire lives are consumed by finance and they have no time for anything else: it is simply that they know they can make a lot of money in banking and they realize that the fun things in life (exotic holidays, nice clothes, fancy restaurants etc) don't come cheap. Sure, both of them could try to make a living from their hobbies - the American could become a martial arts instructor and the Kiwi could become a session musician, but why would they do that when they are making millions in banking?
Have you heard this saying before? If you find a job you truly enjoy, you will never ever do a day of work ever again. That means that work wouldn't feel like a chore - you will wake up in the morning all fired up, enthusiastic and happy to go to work. Indeed, I have met people like that in showbiz - they have found a particular niche they excel at and they are paid a lot of money to do what they love, what could be better? Do all actors always enjoy their work?
Certainly acting can be fun... |
Acting does seem like fun to many people outside the industry - compare it to say an accountant who has to sit down at a computer all day staring at figures on the screen. Okay, that is a simplistic comparison, but you get the idea. After all, when I was in secondary school, participating in the drama festival was one of the most enjoyable experiences from my secondary school days. Contrast that with the maths lessons and endless maths homework, that was what fuelled my impression that acting was fun. But I guess it's down to the individual - some people get an adrenaline rush performing to a huge audience of thousands, others become downright terrified at the prospect of public speaking.
Whether an actor enjoys acting depends on so many factors - for a start, you have to be happy with the role you are playing. Imagine a production of Romeo & Juliet - all the male actors would want to play Romeo and all the female actors would want to play Juliet for they are the lead roles. Okay, if you don't get to play the lead, then you see how far down the billing you fall - are you Mercutio? The Nurse? Count Paris? Tybalt? Or are you all the way at the bottom of the pecking order - Abram, Balthasar, Peter, Samson, Gregory and the Apothecary?
Of course, the same thing could be said about banking. It is a fiercely competitive rat race and by the same token, I have also witnessed just as many frustrated executives in the banking industry who are passed over for promotions. Like those frustrated actors, they have also invested a lot of time and money in professional training and are undoubtedly highly skilled - yet somehow they are either stuck in a rut, wishing they were doing something better or worse, unemployed. Yup, given the number of financial institutions who have gone bust or have downsized since the current financial crisis started, there are indeed many unemployed people who used to have good jobs in the financial services sector. Times are hard, we're in a recession.
Not all bankers are doing that well today... |
Would it surprise you that there are people who are doing badly in the financial services industry or acting? Why should that come as a surprise? After all, take any industry - engineering, healthcare, education, fashion design, tourism etc - you will have winners at the top of the food chain and loser at the bottom of the food chain. By that token, that puts actors and bankers in exactly the same boat - if you are good at what you're doing, then you will be happy, if not, then you're screwed. That's not rocket science, really.
Another issue which affects both parties equally is getting along with one's colleagues - if you work with people who are nice, then team work is not only a breeze, it can be a pleasure. But if you simply do not get along with those you have to work with, then oh dear, good luck to you. By that token, I have encountered both nice and horrible people in both industries and thankfully, I am very diplomatic. I know how to handle difficult people by hiding my emotions and telling them what they want to hear, so as to avoid confrontations. It all boils down to office politics - finding true allies amongst your colleagues, keeping your friends close and your enemies closer.
Office politics happens in every single industry. |
Many people imagine that actors have a far more relaxed working environment than bankers, that the environment backstage or in the dressing room is far more jovial than in the conference room or in the office - well, you're wrong. It is a very different environment, but is it more relaxed? No, not always. Let me give you an example from my current play. I have a director who is a micro-manager, ie. he wants to have final say on every aspect of the show because after all, it is his show, his creation, his baby. Last week, I was having a casual chat with the assistant director about a scene which she saw (but the director didn't) - I was simply asking her, "what did you think of what you saw?" The director got so angry with me for having the audacity to ask her that question in his presence. He blew his top off and shouted at me, "I am the director here, you should always ask me! Not her! You have questions you ask me, not her!" That was awkward to say the least for he had insulted the assistant director in the process, effectively telling her that her opinion didn't matter at all. You should've seen the look on her face. Believe you me, the working environment may be different but actors are still subjected to the same old office politics bullshit: pecking orders, egos, chain of command and all that crap. I'm now a lot more careful about what I say when he is in the same room.
Let's look at the issue of money - surely bankers earn more than actors right? Yes and no - it is not that simple. Now if you were to look at take home pay per se, on average, yes bankers do earn more, but let's break that down. In both industries, you have winners and losers, I'm sure we're all familiar with bankers who earn millions with large bonuses, but what about actors? If you were to look at the big stars in showbiz: Daniel Radcliffe, Jude Law, Daniel Craig, Sienna Miller, Judi Dench, Brad Pitt, Angelina Jolie, Madonna etc - they are all multi-millionaires. There are plenty of very rich actors in the industry and indeed, there are those who struggled for a long time making very little money before finally making it big. I'm not even talking about actors (like myself in fact) who worked in another industry before turning their hands to acting - many indeed do struggle on for years, even decades, in the hope that one day they will finally get that role which would make them famous. But in the meantime, they struggle on.
How many actors become truly successful? |
When actors do get paid work, the money is usually pretty good - especially in the UK where most Equity contracts are very decent. Indeed, the issue here is not how much actors are paid, but the actor being able to get a constant stream of quality work. Let me look at the last ten jobs that I have done as an actor and show you how short the contracts are:
2013 Feb: Music video (1 day's work)
2013 Feb: Radio (1 day's work)
2013 Jan - Mar: Play,Theatre, West End (6 nights a week for 9 weeks + 1 week's rehearsal)
2013 Jan: TV Sitcom (1 week's work)
2013 Jan: Music video (1 day's work)
2012 Dec: Voice over (1 day's work)
2012 Nov: Radio (2 days' work)
2012 Oct: Photo shoot (1 day's work)
2013 Sep: Commercial (2 days' work)
2012 Sep: TV Comedy (2 days' work)
That's from a music video shoot last week. |
So as you can see, apart from the current theatre stint, that's a day's work here and there with some slightly longer contracts here and there. So if you were to calculate how much I earn per working day as an actor, the figure is pretty impressive. However, if you were to calculate how much as an actor (excluding money earned from other work not related to showbiz) over the same period, then the amount earned per month as an actor is pretty low. That kind of work schedule you see above reflects what is pretty typical for an average actor who is always getting some work some of the time (can I stress how many actors there are who get no work or little work most of the time), so that leaves me with a lot of free time on my hands when I am not performing. What I do with that time is that I actually maintain a decent day job in finance, what other actors do with their free time varies. Many have day jobs or part time jobs to make sure they can pay the bills, some are studying, some prefer to spend time with their families whilst others simply take it easy and get a lot of sleep. (Can you put a price on getting enough sleep?)
Actually, the latter is actually quite common. In my current production, my director has actively discouraged us from doing any other paid work during the 10 week period of the show. His rationale is that if we put in a full day's work, we would show up in the evening for the show feeling exhausted and unable to perform well. He would be mortified if he knew how many hours a week a worked outside the show - but hey, that's just me because I want to hold down a regular job. I'm not typical (I'm an Asian workaholic) - let's look at my colleagues who do depend on acting and nothing else. Whilst they earn far less than bankers, they are putting in far less hours of work - so they are actually rich in terms of the free time they enjoy and they certainly get more hours of sleep a night. Not enough people actually count how many hours of sleep they get a week but IMHO, if you do get more than 60 hours of sleep a week, you're doing pretty well. If you're getting by on less than 50, then that's barely enough and anything below 45 is just downright unhealthy. (How many hours a week do you sleep? Leave a comment below.)
How do you measure your job satisfaction and the quality of your life? |
Now in contrast, your average banker who earns a lot more money does actually put in many more hours a week - my Blackberry alerts me to work emails that comes through throughout my weekend and it is evident that many of the clients I am dealing with are often at work in the evenings and also the weekends. So they are putting in 60 or even 70 hours a week, the amount of money they actually earn per hour goes down when you work out just how many hours a week they have to work.
Time is a precious resource - by working that many hours a week, many sacrifice time with their loved ones and they actually see more of their boss than their spouse. They spend more time in meetings with their colleagues than playing with their children - so whilst they are richer in terms of the amount of money they earn, are they happier? What is the point of working so hard to provide for your children when you barely even get to see your children?
Parents: do you spend time with your colleagues or your children? |
In sharp contrast, many of my actor friends who have a lot more free time on their hands are actually so poor that they cannot dream of starting a family! It costs a lot of money to raise a child and such a commitment does rely on the parent(s) having a reliable source of income. It seems that you can only have one or the other: a lot of money or a lot of time but not both - the former would mean that you can afford to have children but have no time to see them, the latter would simply mean you can't even afford to have children even if you have all the time in the world to play with them. The grass is certainly not green on either side of the fence when it comes to children - but if you don't want to have children, then this wouldn't bother you either way.
I find it ironic that so many parents out there are working so hard to provide for their children, but in putting in so many hours, they are missing out on parenthood. Being a parent isn't simply funding a child's education, it is actually being there for your child. One of my sister's maid actually does have a child of her own in Indonesia and she is working in Singapore a a maid just so she can afford to send her child to school. You may think that is noble - but I do wonder what the point is, in having a child that you can't see (cos you're working so hard in another country) but are then financially responsible for until they reach adulthood and by the time they've completed their education, you finally return home to meet a stranger you barely know? Is that what parenthood is about? Duh.
What is parenthood about, really? |
The harsh reality of earning little is that you can't afford the nice things in life - never mind the financial commitment to start a family. So sue me, I am materialistic. I like to be able to walk into a shop, see something nice and say, "Ooh I'd buy that, I love it." It is not nice to have to deny yourself the nice things in life - I remember when I went on a short holiday to Austria last year. A actor friend of mine was keen to come along with us but ultimately, he couldn't find the money. I was like, come on it's just £300 or so, it's not that much money for a long weekend in Austria, you mean to tell me you don't have £300 in the bank? Evidently not. Which was a terrible shame as I had a brilliant time in Austria and he missed out on what would've been a lovely experience. And here's the thing - I did also ask a banker friend of mine to come along and I knew he had plenty of money, but guess what? "Sorry, I couldn't get the time off work, we're just too busy for me to take any time off as much as I'd love to go skiing with you."
So there you go my friends, at the end of the day, I don't think the grass is greener on the other side of the fence. There are problems for both actors and bankers - but those who are the happiest are those who are the most successful ones on both sides of the fence. That's the bottom line really - if you're successful at what you do, you're far more likely to be happy. Now that ain't rocket science, is it?
Do you wish you were doing something else with your life? |
It's back to the usual question of 'bread versus love' in another sense. I have seen people who are unhappy in what they do currently (I am like that sometimes in my current job and try to find ways to 'escape', but in the end, come face-to-face with the reality that it is not forever and meant to be a stepping stone at best) but make more money--or at least enough--to sponsor their lifestyle spending habits. I have also seen those who do jobs which are not even that 'glamorous' by most social standards, such as managing a New Age paraphernalia store or flower arrangement store but seem to enjoy it way better than out in the business world or elsewhere.
ReplyDeleteThe distinction is never that clear as you have stated, and yet, at times, I suspect that it is really not monetary success that determines happiness. I believe that being recognized in something really brings a lot of joy to the job, even if it does not rake in the cash. For example, I have friends who are semi-professional athletes, insofar as they run their own sports coaching or personal training business in the day and then compete in their sports outside of their business, and they always do it for the love of it alone. Even those who do stop competing eventually still look back with gladness at those days when they did it. I think that these kinds of 'roads less trodden' probably present something different from those who actually take the usual path mapped out for, or expected of, them such as going to the office day in and day out and submitting to predictable routines. Of course, in most cases, I think that even office jobs might be challenging for some, but my perception of them for now are still stuck at very fuzzy ideas since my non-academic work prior to my current job was still very much desk-bound.
Well, I think one must be true to one's desires - I know of too many people who simply did what their parents wanted them to do, then they got married and they did what their spouse wanted them to do and they spend too much time trying to please everyone except themselves.
DeleteMy point is that even if they do take the brave step to follow their heart's desires, there is still no guarantee that it will eventually lead to happiness. The key factor that determines happiness at the end of the day is success (however you wish to quantify/qualify it).
Yes, success can be really subjective for people in most professions or even in their passions and interests. For example, to go back to the example of my friends who are semi-professional athletes, while they do enjoy their competitive experiences, the thing that wears down some of them is the inability to sustain that competitive lifestyle(think of the food for their diet and supplements) alongside the meager earnings they make in a bid to improve themselves in their business(often personal training and sports coaching) via education. It probably boils down to what one sees to be success.
DeleteI guess by Singaporean standards, I cannot be called a success, since I have none of the 5C's(except maybe a Canadian credit card which was a fluke, since I had it since university days, and North American credit cards are extremely easy to obtain). Neither do I have a career per se, although I am a contracted 'academic' in that sense of the word(at least temporarily), and have a doctoral degree. But I take joy in the fact that I am learning more about myself even amidst the worst of experiences and experiences which I might not always like, and the learning journey is as important as the moments outside of work which I spend on my interests. It also helps that I left Singapore behind me, because I technically put a distance between more materialistic views of 'success' and my own personal beliefs that way.
"Well, I think one must be true to one's desires - I know of too many people who simply did what their parents wanted them to do, then they got married and they did what their spouse wanted them to do and they spend too much time trying to please everyone except themselves."
DeleteStory of my life. Well ... kinda. So many gravity wells to escape from ... how long did Han Solo take to complete the Kessel Run again?
Oh it depends on so many things my friend - it is not necessarily a bad thing if you want the same thing, it's only when there is a conflict of interest that problems arise. I think I am pretty lucky in that my parents never really forced me to do anything I didn't want to and I know of too many Asian parents whose relationships with their children have totally broken down.
DeleteYou know that famous prodigy violinist Vanessa-Mae (born in S'pore)? Do you know that her relationship with her mother is so bad that they've not spoken in many years because VM's mother pushed her too hard to the point where VM broke, snapped ... when she became an adult, she didn't want anything to do with her mother anymore.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1042593/The-heart-breaking-moment-I-realised-mother-cut-forever-violin-virtuoso-Vanessa-Mae.html
DeleteWell, LIFT, I am a living testimony to that clash of values between the 'Asian' parents and the child. I refused to go the way they thought that I should go--become a MOE teacher, marry a Singaporean girl or the one that they so desire me to marry, stay on in Singapore and live there with them. I left to do my PhD although it was in a field that nobody would ever do in Singapore at all (I did medieval studies as my concentration in my English PhD, out of INTEREST). Even now, I still refuse to live the life others prescribe to me, which includes going back to Singapore to work, finding a Singaporean girl(no offence there, but I find Singaporean women seriously repulsive compared to their more beautiful South Korean and even Canadian and Australian counterparts), and becoming one of 'them' (Sinkies). I still remember how at one Lunar New Year dinner back in 2011, one Singaporean ex-secondary school classmate had mused to the other ex-classmates right in my face, "OK, let's wait one year from now and see whether __________ {my name here} will still be jobless." What presumptiousness and assumed privilege just because you work in Hong Kong and rave all about your money and position in the bank.....I guess to each his own.....In the whole big picture though, I take delight in the knowledge that it all boils down to yourself: Instead of living what others tell you, what is it that YOU exactly want for yourself? That is a very important question. My parents did eventually accept my choice and now stand behind my wish and plans to migrate and give up Singapore residency in the long run after I made my stand. I suspect that most other people though, whether Singaporeans or wherever they come, do not technically have that form of self-consciousness about what they really want in life, and go through the motions of the everyday.
DeleteLIFT, Your article is a balanced evaluation of the conflicts between love and money; you seem to conclude theres NO conflict between the two. The dichotomy between chasing one’s dreams and earning a lot is artificial and outdated. They are not mutually exclusive; the image of the “struggling actor/ tortured artist” belongs to the last century, today its a myth. It is an excuse given by people who have not achieved material success, to blame it on commercialised society rather than their own lack of competence. Furthermore, there are people whose first love IS money itself. They can launch into an all-out grab for ultimate riches WITHOUT feeling theyre selling their soul, leaving their conscience /loved ones behind. And you have mentioned your career in corporate finance presents challenges & opportunities you relish -the wealth is a bonus. So, I think its naïve and idealistic for your readers to think (as one implied in an earlier post) your theatre job is about you going back to your first love which you abandoned years ago for money; doesn’t this belong in the realm of romantics who like to complicate things just for the heck of it?
ReplyDeleteHi there my friend. Yes my point is that it is not so simple - cos real life is complex. It would be simplistic to think that just because you follow your 'first love' (however you wish to define it) you'll be happy. In my case, I am finding out that the grass is not greener on the other side of the fence, but I was not naive - I never expected it to be, I know enough about both industries to appreciate them both for their good points and know how to deal with their low points.
DeleteFor me, it's more a matter of unfinished business - I did do TSD at A levels and my drama teacher thought I was useless at acting, yet I turned out to be by far the most successful actor from that batch of TSD students in VJC having established myself in the far more competitive London market than in Singapore. But there you go, first it was proving to myself that my teacher's judgement was wrong - then it was, "hey, I wonder how far I can go with this? I'll never find out if I never try." So now this is finding out - I am approaching it with an open mind and trying, such is life.
I like your analysis of the struggling actor/tortured artist - that is so accurate! Mind you, I have done the whole thing to make money - in 2004, I earned a crazy amount of money in finance despite only working 11 months that year and I was putting in 70 hours a week. I was in the right place at the right time to make a lot of money and I totally cashed in on it, I would never make as much money as I did that year - but by November that year, I was so burnt out from working like that I needed to take a break and that was when I took my sabbatical and went to do other things.
Mind you, I had the luxury to do that because I don't have dependants so I can say, "I'm going to disappear off the face of the world for a while and go do something different to discover what I really wanna do with my life" without worrying about money as I had squirrelled enough away. I see many people with kids feel this desperate desire to go do something else, but they cannot because they have people depending on them financially - now that's sad.
LIFT, that brings me to another matter, when it comes to that of (in)ability. You mentioned that your teacher then at VJC had stated that you were bad at Theatre and acting, but you went onto doing it successfully for a sideline that you do outside of office hours. I wonder how that would apply to the case of those who did very well in something in school, such as literature, history and whatever else, and yet choose not to have a career or job related to it whatsoever, and in fact, because he or she knows that the market does not allow it, or because they simply do not foresee following what others thought they would do or should do based on their talents.
DeleteYes, not having dependents such as a wife or children to support and feed makes such dreams or plans of doing something which is unexpected of you much, much easier. I am happy that this singlehood allows me to move out of Singapore, and plan to stay single till I settle down eventually in a comfortable corner of the globe emotionally and mentally.
I guess that it is really where I differ as a person. As much as I wish I would want to work harder, I actually subscribe more to the philosophy that we should all work less and stop to smell the roses, spend time on self-reflection and learning more about the world around us and ourselves. Of course, without a stable job to help give you some free 'me time', that would not be possible too, because you cannot be looking into the skies at the beach or harbor all day long while unemployed, and hope to feed off the air and dew :P It is a case of work-life balance, which is becoming more and more obsolete, or if not, rarer in these days with the recession worldwide and the atmosphere of austerity in most countries.