Wednesday, 21 April 2021

Anti-Asian hate crime, vaccines and water slides

Hi there guys. Today's post is about something interesting I had observed recently on Facebook - I am on a Facebook group for Singaporeans in the UK and this guy whom we shall call Rick (not his real name) asked a question. He is going to move to the UK for work later this year and having seen a lot in the news about anti-Asian hate crime, he asked if him and his wife might face any real danger as Asian in the UK. This started a long discussion with many people contributing to the discussion and what I observed in this discussion was actually so interesting that I decided to turn it into a blog pot. Thankfully, despite all the reports of anti-Asian racism in the media now, hardly anyone had experienced it personally - some had stories to share like, "in the town where I live, there was this case when a Chinese guy was attacked in town a few years ago." The worst story was how this woman was at an outdoor market and she was wearing earphones, listening to music - this guy shouted at her but her music was so loud she was oblivious to what was going on around her, so he went up to her, stood right in front of her to use sign language to take off her earphones before shouting some really abusive language at her - the incident shocked her as she had no idea why that man had singled her out in the crowd or what she had done to have upset him, thus she assumed that the only logical explanation had to be racism. She didn't stay there to reason or argue with that angry man, she ran away out of fear which was a very natural reaction.

What I did notice though was that some people did complain of racism and when they shared their stories, I shook my head and thought, that's not racism, is it? Now don't get me wrong, these were very awkward social encounters that left these people feeling unhappy, unsettled and even disrespected. Allow me to reconstruct one such incident: Mrs Soh (not her real name) is a Singaporean woman working in England and had gone to visit a client in Leeds whom we shall refer to as 'David'. Upon noticing that Mrs Soh looked Chinese when she entered the meeting room, David greeted her with "ni hao" - this left Mrs Soh feeling awkward because she wasn't expecting it from him. She then asked David, "do you wish to speak to me in Mandarin?" Turns out David didn't speak Mandarin but it was a desperate attempt by the client to establish rapport that clearly failed, because Mrs Soh wasn't impressed. David explained that had assumed that it was the polite thing to do - when he was on holiday in France, he would always greet the locals with bonjour or bonsoir because continuing in English, that's him making an effort with what very limited French he has and he thought it would be better to at least start off with a French greeting than to simply speak to the locals only in English. Mrs Soh pointed out to David that they were in Leeds, not Shanghai and in any case, she was from Singapore and not China, so English was her first language in any case. My regular readers will remember that this is similar to the Sarah Tiong incident in Australia last year when she got awfully offended, when a white radio DJ tried to impress her by greeting her with ni hao. 

So was David racist? Did Mrs Soh experience racism at the hands of David in Leeds? I don't think so - in this case, David is clearly an idiot with poor social skills whose attempt at building rapport had failed miserably. But is he a racist who hates Chinese people, was he trying to insult Mrs Soh? No, he isn't - not at all. However, people like Mrs Soh would classify such incidences as 'anti-Asian racism' or 'racist aggression' despite the total absence of malice on the part of David. Allow me to share another story of a similar nature that I experienced personally: back in 2007, I acted in a TV programme that was trying to recreate a scene in Beijing, but because of budget constraints, they couldn't fly everyone to China so the programme was shot in various Chinese restaurants in London Chinatown, interspersed with some stock footage of Beijing streets. One of the producers whom we shall refer to as Henry (not his real name) called me up the day before the shoot with a question, do I have any Chinese currency I could bring to the set? He referred to Renminbi, the Chinese yuan, the official currency of China and the question was a dumb one - I had made it clear that I'm from Singapore and I do have a little bit of Singapore dollars at home for my next trip to Singapore; but I'm not from China, I have no idea when I may visit China again so why should I have some Chinese currency sitting around at home. Henry's reply was quite ignorant and annoying, "oh but you're Chinese so I thought you would visit your relatives in China from time to time." I had to explain that even if they do exist, I have never ever made any contact with them before. I have a small amount of Euros at home because I often visit countries in the Eurozone for my holidays but if I went to a country like Morocco or Croatia with their own currency - I'd make sure I spend every last bit of the local currency before leaving. 

Henry didn't know that Singapore was an independent country, with its own currency and was located a long way from China - he wouldn't be able to find Singapore on the world map. He had heard that I was from Singapore but assumed that it was some city or province in China. Yes, that's your cue to roll your eyes. We are dealing with someone who was very stupid and ignorant, who had absolutely no concept of what countries were in Asia: his mental map to the East of Greece was probably just a blur. Henry certainly could have handled the situation a lot better - it was clear that his initial assumption was wrong and he should have just apologized for the misunderstanding rather than try to defend his mistake by doubling down on his original "but don't you visit your relatives in China?" assumption. Was Henry stupid? Oh yes, he was definitely very stupid and he had poor social skills on top of that. But did he have any malicious intent to hurt my feelings or insult me? No, I don't think so. Was Henry racist? No, he's stupid: there is a difference between the stupidity and racism. I find this quite troubling because we need to understand the situation properly and know what we are dealing with if we are to tackle the problem of anti-Asian racism. The problem with adding people like David and Henry into the group of British people guilty of anti-Asian racism is that it only obfuscates the situation - we need to focus on the real culprits who are guilty of having malicious, racist intent. The fact is you're going to encounter a lot of dumb people with poor social skills here in the UK, that's a fact of life we just have to deal with - don't get me wrong, it is a pain having to deal with people with poor social skills, but that is not the same as the challenges of dealing with actual racists. 

So with this in mind, let's go back to the discussion on the Facebook group with our friend Rick who is moving to the UK later this year, I can conclude that 9 out of 10 incidences of racism described by the people on the group were not racist incidents, but instead involved a mix of poor social skills, ignorance and sheer stupidity. There were very, very few instances of genuine racism - such as in the Jonathan Mok case: he was the Singaporean student who was beaten up in London by a group of thugs after they used racist language with him. Yes in cases like that, it is pretty obvious that there was malicious intent involved but thankfully, such instances are extremely rare. Many on the Facebook group also said that they could always turn to their management if there were any instances at work where they felt uncomfortable, when they suspected there was racist intent as there are strict rules in this country that make racist discrimination illegal. But where the law stands on stupidity, ignorance and poor social skills is a lot more fuzzy. Thus do we try to use the law to punish people like David and Henry for their appallingly bad social skills, when they say something stupid and inappropriate? I don't think so: such people usually suffer the consequences of their own poor social skills anyway. They have fewer friends, they have a far smaller network of professional contacts, they will perform more poorly at job interviews, they don't know how to chat to strangers at networking event, they might even have difficult relationships with their own family members as a result of these poor social skills - these people are already punished many times over every single day and so we don't need to get the law involved to try to expand this punishment for their poor social skills. 

Allow me to talk about something I just saw on the TV as a case study: I watch a Dutch-language Belgian reality TV series called De Mol, it is one of my favourite TV programmes. There was a bizarre but fun episode this week when the contestants had to take part in a music video for a Japanese singer Takeo Ischi who is the famous Japanese yodeler. The Belgian contestants did two things which annoyed me: firstly, they referred to Takeo as "Mister Taki" and no one on the production team corrected that mistake, despite the fact that it was obvious that they were mispronouncing Takeo's name. The second mistake one contestant made was that he was able to speak to his wife about his day, he then excited told his wife, "we were awoken by a Chinese yodeler this morning!"  Woah, firstly, Takeo is Japanese, you spent the day with him and you never bothered to find out if he was Japanese or Chinese? And secondly, he has a Japanese name - surely anyone who has had some contact with Japanese culture would be able to simply look at a name like 'Takeo Ischi' and conclude that this person is Japanese? Actually, Takeo's surname should be spelt "Ishii" in romanji but he changed it to Ischi to help the German-speaking market pronounce it more easily in German. Was it rude for the contestants to get Takeo's name wrong? Yes. But was it racist? No I don't think so, it's more a case of poor social skills in this case. Likewise, was the contestant who said to his wife that "Mister Taki" was Chinese being racist towards Takeo? Again, no - this is a mix of ignorance, stupidity and of course, poor social skills again. Whilst I was upset with the behaviour of some of the contestants in this episode, I do not think they were racist at all. Stupid perhaps - but not racist. 

Furthermore, it's not just British people with poor social skills who are responsible for these awkward interactions - from what I have read in the discussion, I can see that there are some instances when the Singaporeans are the ones who are equally guilty of having poor social skills. Stella is a Singaporean woman working in a British company and her CEO had invited everyone in her department to submit ideas for their new marketing campaign. Stella thought, "great, this is a way for me to prove myself to my boss", so she worked very hard to come up with her proposal to present her ideas. However, when her white boss looked at her proposal, he wasn't impressed and went with another colleague's ideas instead (and this colleague happens to be a white woman). Stella was furious as she thought her ideas were better but she had been passed over in this case because of racism. What do you make of Stella's situation? Is this a case of racism as Stella alleges? I think that she made a mistake to assume that racism was the main reason why her proposal was passed over - perhaps there were good reasons why her colleague's proposal was chosen over hers, but she wasn't willing to discuss the matter and Stella had already dismissed that as a possibility, which meant that she missed an important opportunity to try to find out how she could improve in that aspect of her work. In any case, even if her proposal was indeed better, what if her colleague was sleeping with the boss and getting favours like that in return? In that case, this had nothing to do with Stella's skin colour or indeed, anything to do with Stella at all but somehow, she refused to consider the other possibilities so she's convinced that the sole possible reason for her proposal to be rejected is racism. 

Stella had no reason to assume that her proposal is so perfect that there's just no way her boss could have rejected it. Stella's faith in her project stems from the fact that she had worked extremely hard on it, however, in the creative world of marketing, it's not like one can easily grade proposals and say "this proposal is better than Stella's proposal" - often, it is subjective and it is up to each individual to present their case and justify why they think their idea is so good. In playing the race card, Stella is presenting herself as the innocent victim who has done nothing wrong and doesn't need to do anything differently but there is always a possibility that she did make some mistakes in her proposals and if that is the case, then there are changes she can make to improve her work. Likewise, in assuming that racism is the only reason for her boss to dislike her, Stella is completely oblivious to the range of factors that govern our complex social relationships in the office environment - there are a thousand other reasons why her boss could dislike her without it having anything to do with racism. He could be misogynistic, he may consider her too working class and not his social equal, maybe Stella simply hadn't made enough of an effort to try to establish any kind of social rapport with him outside work or it could be something very personal like if Stella slurps her coffee loudly in the office and he finds her coffee-drinking habits annoying. The fact is us humans are capable of finding loads of different methods to hate each other, so Stella shouldn't assume that any kind of interpersonal problems must only be a result of racism, to the exclusion of all other possibilities. 

But I hear you ask, what about all the reports of anti-Asian hate crimes in the media, you may ask me. Well as horrific as they are, it is time to talk about statistics. When an Asian person gets attacked in New York or London, sure it becomes headline news and we all react emotionally to that. However, when I have a very uneventful day, I just won't talk about it on social media as nobody would be interested.  So we need to crunch the numbers and work out the statistics: the odds of an Asian person suffering a horrific racist attack in New York or London is actually pretty low, however, the emotions sparked by the attacks that had been reported in the news makes a lot of Asian people very nervous and scared about the possibility of an attack. So allow me to compare this to something I experienced just three days ago: I got vaccinated with the Oxford Astrazeneca vaccine. Some of my friends were shocked that I agreed to be vaccinated with this vaccine in particular because of the risk of blood cots associated with it, but the fact is the risk of developing a blood cot with this vaccine is about 1 in 250,000 or 0.0004% and the benefits of being vaccinated far outweigh the risks associated - now let's compare that to a risk of a flight from London to New York which takes approximately 8 hours. The risk of developing a blood clot associated with deep vein thrombosis (DVT) on that flight is 1 in 4,656 or 0.021% - which is actually about 54 times more risky than getting the Astrazeneca jab. However, these very same people who are so worried about the vaccine would not hesitate to get on that flight to New York if say they won a free holiday in a lucky draw. Yet because of the sensational way these minute blood clot risks have been reported in the media, it has so totally played into the hands of those anti-vaxxers who are subject to confirmation bias without any real understanding of the science or the statistics. 

I took the bus to go for my vaccination - that may seem like a mundane detail, but allow me to use that to put things in perspective: in the year ending in June 2020, a total of 24,470 people were killed or seriously injured in road accidents in the UK. Given the population of the UK is 67 million, that's a 1 in 2,738 chance (or 0.037%) of me getting killed or seriously injured during my journey I made to and from the hospital, making that seemingly mundane bus journey a lot more dangerous than the Astrazeneca vaccine. But this is when people become so illogical and even downright stupid: they have no qualms about taking a bus to go for a hospital appointment because they are familiar with the bus route, it is a journey they have done before, they know exactly which bus stop to get off, they might even be familiar with the bus schedule and know approximately how long the journey ought to take. However, when it comes to how vaccines work, there is probably a lot they don't understand behind the science and thus you hear people claiming, "I am not letting them inject me with that thing because I don't know what is in that vaccine!" That's when I will roll my eyes and say, you're an idiot, you're not a medical professional nor a scientist - of course common folks like you don't know what is in that vaccine. You don't know how a mobile phone works but yet you're constantly on your phone all the time. Look around the room you're in right now, if you're not allowed to use anything that you can actually claim "I know exactly how this works", then you're not allowed to use it. You don't know how your Wifi router works? Then no internet for you. If you were to abide strictly by that rule, you would be living like cavemen in a hunter-gatherer society, devoid of your modern comforts. 

We naturally trust the authorities that govern us to ensure that everything is in order - I recall an incident when my nephew was much younger and we took him to the water theme park Wild Wild Wet. My father decided to tag along as he had nothing better to do that day and he wanted to spend some time with his beloved grandson. When my father looked at some of the water slides there, he commented to me, "我不懂这些安全吗?" (I don't know if these are safe?) I rolled my eyes and had to explain to my father that nobody is expecting him to do a full safety assessment before he lets his precious grandson onto a water slide - the Singapore government would have very strict safety standards that would be implemented in all leisure facilities and these slides were designed with those strict safety standards in mind. Every single facility in the venue would have been tested many times to check if they all meet those strict safety standards before the first member of the public is even allowed to get on one of those water slides. The people in charge have ensured that everything in the water theme park is safe for the customers to enjoy and nobody is expecting a customer like my father to do a risk assessment when they get there. So my father doesn't need to understand the physics behind the water slide but it doesn't matter, because the experts have done their job already. I don't claim to be an expert when it comes to the engineering behind these water slides - that's quite a niche field of design and engineering but I am more than happy to trust the authorities to do their job to keep me safe whether it is a water slide at a water theme park or a Covid-19 vaccine or indeed, the issue of anti-Asian hate crimes in the UK. Of course, you can't micromanage every single aspect of your life - so you have to trust others in your society and reap the benefits of being a part of that society. 

Furthermore, there is an issue with the way hate crimes are being reported in the media. If a journalist were to contact me and ask me if I was worried about anti-Asian racist hate crimes, my answer would be, "no, I am not worried, I've got other things to worry about." That would not be the kind of quote that would make an interesting report, so the journalist would prefer to interview people who go on these protest marches and get angry reactions from them. Likewise, if a journalist was trying to do a story about the public reaction to the death of Prince Philip, even if the journalist did interview me, my reaction would be, "I am not really interested in what happened, thus I have no emotional response to speak of, in fact I'm just surprised there's so much fuss." No, the journalist would prefer to interview someone who has taken a day off work, travel hundred of miles to lay some flowers at Buckingham Palace as that would make a far more interesting story. Sensational content creates click bait in an environment where all these online news websites are desperately competing for your attention, so boring, more mundane reactions are often ignored altogether. However, this leads to the situation whereby people like myself do not get my views represented in the media - that's why people in Singapore could read the news and come away with the inaccurate impression that all Asians in the UK are extremely terrified about anti-Asian hate crime (when we're not) and that everyone else here has been mourning the recent death of Prince Philip.

So why should the issue of anti-Asian hate crimes be any different than vaccines or water theme parks? After all, it's not like we're living in a lawless, consequence-free environment where people get to commit crimes without fear of punishment. The thugs who attacked Jonathan Mok in London were arrested and sentenced: well, guess what? We actually do have a police force and a legal system here to deal with things like that you know - sure both of these entities could do a better job when it comes to the policing of hate crimes and the system isn't perfect of course, but nonetheless a system does exist. Yet somehow the way that these anti-Asian hate crimes have been reported in the media has left our friend Rick in Singapore that it is the 'wild west' here where there is a total absence of any kind of law enforcement. There are places in the world which are truly lawless, such as in Somalia 1991 to 2006, where the outbreak of civil war led to the total collapse of the government and a state of anarchy ensued in the absence of any kind of law enforcement - this happened as well in 1997 in Albania, where a revolution led to the collapse of the government and armed gangs rushed in to fill the gap that ensued, taking control of vast swathes of the country. Then there's the Central African Republic which has been suffering from civil war for many years now, currently their government's troops control less than half the country and thus the other half is controlled by various armed militias - given the complete collapse of any kind of law and order in the rebel held territories, crimes are committed daily with complete impunity. Whilst one racist hate crime in one too many, let's be clear here - the UK and US have not descended into anarchy like these three places.

I recognize that the situation in the UK is far from perfect, of course there's a lot that can be done in terms of improving law and order in our society and to reduce our overall crime rate. However, I need to point out that if you're going to experience any kind of crime here in the UK, it is extremely highly unlikely to have anything to do with racism - however, there are other kinds of crime that happen on a daily basis and these have absolutely nothing to do with racism. Some of the more common causes of crime are related to gang violence and drugs, so drug addicts who are desperate for their next fix may rob you if they think you're an easy target. Given the number of drug and gang related crimes there are in the country vs the number of anti-Asian hate crimes, it does beggar belief that Rick is so worried about racism whilst he doesn't seem to care about other kinds of crime that he may have to deal with when he is in the UK. It is a huge blind spot on Rick's part which is puzzling - he is moving to the UK because of a lucrative job offer, the guy is educated, he certainly isn't stupid but he does seem quite irrational and illogical when it comes to the issue of racist hate crime. If Rick genuinely wants to be adjust to life in the UK, he is asking the wrong question: instead of focusing on the one topic of racism, he needs to find out more about what it is like to live in a country where the crime rate is higher than Singapore and what are the real risks that he has to face in this aspect, noting that the vast majority of crimes in this country have absolutely nothing to do with racism at all. After all, if Rick is going to adjust to life in the UK quickly, there are so many other issues he really needs to focus his attention on rather than be very consumed by the worry of experiencing racism. 

So there you go, that's it from me on this topic - what do you think? Are Asian people overreacting when it comes to racist hate crimes in the West, or should we take the stance that one racist hate crime is one too many? Am I being rational when I default to using statistics to evaluate our risk when it comes to the risks involved in racist hate crimes (and Astrazeneca vaccine related blood clots) or am I being tone deaf to the feelings of others? Is there a way we can strike a sensible compromise between the two? Or am I barking up the wrong tree when I start using statistics to evaluate the risk of an Asian hate crime, because this is not solely about the incidents of crime per se, but about how safe Asian people who live in the West feel simply walking down the street, trying to get on with their lives? Have you met white people like David and Henry who are quite stupid and have very poor social skills but are actually not racist at all? Or perhaps you might know someone like Stella, who is all too ready to assume that the other party is racist without first exploring the possibility of that they may not be? Do you know the difference between a racist with malicious intent or just someone who is so stupid and has quite poor social skills? Please leave a comment below and many thanks for reading. 

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  1. I'm genuinely surprised many Asians who were born and raised in Western countries and even Singaporeans can be very offended by a white person saying "ni-hao." I agree with you that when someone does this its probably just trying to establish rapport. I grew up in an international school with classmates of various ethnicities, races, and nationalities, and many times people would mistake me for Korean/Japanese/Chinese/Thai/etc., and I couldn't care less. Its not too difficult to speak up and clarify your actual ethnicity. But somehow people who grew up in a place where everyone is the same nationality and have never met a single foreigner automatically assume that if someone mistakes them for a foreigner then they are automatically racist. I can think of way worse insults than being called a foreigner. But these people could argue "but nobody would say ni-hao to a white person!" And they are right in that regard. Let me share a story where I thought it was sexism but now I'm not so sure.

    I went to a clinic in Singapore once. And the doctor asked me what my college major was when he saw my student insurance. I said "physics", and he said "oh, are you taking that to teach physics?" and I said "no, I want to be a scientist/inventor/startup founder." I felt quite offended at the time because I thought nobody would say that to a man, and it was a bit weird he suddenly started touching my knee even though some Singaporeans told me older people in Sg do that in an endearing sort of way(really?). But he didn't say anything bad about my choice after that, instead he asked me what kind of physics I do and suggested we should go for a coffee sometime (I never went back cuz of the knee thing). If he had held on to his assumption by insisting I teach, or by saying I'd fail at being a scientist/inventor/startup founder despite not knowing me, then maybe I could clearly say he was sexist. But it was a bit unusual to ask if I was teaching, even though many physics majors, men included, fail at being scientists/inventors/startup founders and end up teaching in highschools or leaving science altogether. In fact 60% of physics graduates work a job outside science/engineering/tech. But I don't know how he could've known that considering he was in the medical field.

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    1. Well Amanda, on the topic of "ni hao!" allow me to share with you what happened this morning. I met an Asian looking guy at work who spoke Spanish with a strange accent, I thought he looked South American, turns out he is Perenakan/Baba (ie. half Malay half Chinese) from Penang but lived a long time in Nerja in Spain, where I had visited before. So turns out we had 6 languages in common: Malay, Mandarin, Cantonese, Hokkien, Spanish and English. There was also a Spanish lady there who spoke Spanish with us and she was shocked that people from Singapore and Malaysia spoke Spanish fluently and we were like, no we're exceptional, you'll end up speaking English if you went to that part of he world.

      Now with my friend from Penang with whom I shared 6 languages, then yeah if I said ni hao to him, Mandarin is one of the 6 languages we both speak so we can have a real, meaningful conversation in Mandarin. But if a white person said ni hao to me, I would expect either a) he speaks Mandarin well and wants some language practice or b) he is an idiot trying to establish rapport by trying to impress me with the 5 words he knows in Chinese. I think trying to impress someone is a risky method to try to establish rapport - why not just say "hi Amanda, how are you today?" I would establish rapport with you by showing interest in your well-being, your thoughts, your concerns and your feelings. I won't start showing you my Instagram gymnastics videos to try to impress you because even if you recognized that those skills were difficult, you might find the very act of trying to 'show off' or 'impress you' as being quite tasteless, you might prefer a friend who was more humble. So it's not that 'ni hao' is racially offensive, it's just shockingly poor social skills.

      Oh Singaporeans are so sexist and misogynistic. My sister applied to study law at NUS and she was denied a place probably because of a bad interview performance. So she was told (by some idiot) that if a woman claims she wants to be the next hot shot lawyer, the panel would think, dream on little lady, next. So she went in there and claimed she wanted to study law to become a legal secretary - they then said, "you don't need a law degree to do that, anyone can become a legal secretary without a law degree, you're barking up the wrong tree." The rug was pulled out under her feet in that interview but she was given very bad advice going into that interview, so I feel sorry for her - she got sexist advice in Singapore and it is shocking how bad things were bad in her days. I imagine your encounter was very much in the same vein - it is just quite nasty sexism based on the assumption that women will settle for less.

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    2. OK let me make my point about 'ni hao' and boasting in this way: imagine if this guy wanted to impress you with the size of his car (feel free to replace 'car' with anything else for that matter). He goes on and on about his car and you go okay, let's go to a car park to take a look, when you get there you see it is just a little electric car barely big enough for 2 people. It's a little car, nothing wrong with smaller electric cars but why would you boast/brag about it being so impressive when it is that modest? Likewise, if someone came up to me and said 'ni hao' - that's the same as claiming "hey my car is massive / my language skills are so impressive I am greeting you in your language"; if someone wants to impress me in that languages department, they had better be prepared to follow up with a totally brilliant conversation with me in Mandarin otherwise it's back to that little electric car in the car park. No it's not 'racist' but it's just dumb to try to go down the boasting route if you have nothing to boast about.

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    3. Lol your encounter with that Spanish speaking half malay/half chinese person reminds me of the time me and my best friend, who is half malay half chinese, were at a ferry station in New York. There was this Spanish speaking white dude who had problems with his phone and walked up to my friend and started asking her for help accessing the public WiFi in Spanish. My friend was flabbergasted and had to say she didn't speak any Spanish, so the person next to her noticed and started helping that gentleman because he could speak Spanish. I remember telling my sister who lives in Texas about that, and she said "oh it's cuz your friend looks hispanic. Many hispanics in Texas look like her." Come to think of it she does! But she didn't feel insulted about that. Then there was a separate incident in New York where a Chinese person asked me for help in Mandarin and my friend stepped in instead because her Mandarin is flawless after doing her undergrad education in Beijing.

      Yeah it is in poor taste to try to impress someone immediately. But it's not racist, just a bit egoistic/bad social skills. I can think of way dumber things that guys have tried to say to me on dates. Anyway, that doctor who asked if I wanted to be a teacher was quite old, like minimum 60. When I went to a hospital recently in Sg and met a much younger doctor, he asked me what my major was and immediately asked "what is your research?!" Now he seemed genuinely interested and respectful. Things have changed nowadays at least. I have been on many Tinder dates with Singaporeans men my age where I tell people I'm a scientist and they don't assume I'm doing it to be a teacher. So at least things are looking up.

      That is really shitty of NUS considering how brilliant your sister is. But knowing your sister's time, I heard that in the batch 10 years before I started uni, NTU only had 2 girls out of 100 students in their electrical engineering department. Nowadays it's more like 25 girls per 100. Even now gender roles among the older generation (think over 40s) are still on people's minds. For me it's really weird when I see a Dad who doesn't contribute to raising a child nowadays because most of the men around my age are excellent cooks/cleaners/dog parents. If your sister was rejected for law, what did she end up doing at NUS? I sorta feel maybe she should've followed you to the UK to study law if NUS didn't want her.

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    4. Well it is a risky strategy to try to impress someone - I don't think there's anything wrong with that, but it takes social skills to know your audience well in order to gauge their response. I think social media is great for that actually, let's say you bake a cake and you take some selfies with the intention of sharing your recipe to create this lovely cake: with the right hash tags, you are attracting people interested in baking and would love your post. But a misspelling and if you wrote #banking instead of #baking then you might get some pretty confused people looking at your post and not liking it. These social media platforms have algorithms to feed us what we like to see, but are we able to do that same process in our interactions with others?

      My sister did a degree in arts & social science then went into medical care, a field which couldn't be less relevant to her degree. I'm afraid we were a poor family then, I had a scholarship to go to the UK to study but my sister didn't have the grades to be considered scholarship material back in those days and my parents couldn't afford to send her to the UK.

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    5. Yeah you're right "ni-hao" sounds like a very cheap way to impress people because anyone can do it. I'm not fazed if someone tries to impress me, I'm more fazed if someone throws a tantrum after seeing that I'm not impressed, as if they are entitled to praise somehow. So if I did meet someone with a car that they were proud of, even if I wasn't proud of it and they let it go then my impression of them wouldn't be lowered. But if they called me some rich snob for looking down on their tiny electric car only because I didn't say "wow", then that's really pathetic.

      Oh that's really sad but at least your sister turned out well even after making a career switch. Even if she had the grades there aren't enough scholarships for smart students who don't come from rich families.

      Btw speaking of France, Alex is it really true the French are the skinniest country in Europe? I'm really curious about this since coming from Asia I'm surprised at the obesity rate in Western countries that isn't shown in film/tv. But even on film/tv the French look skinnier than other western countries.

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    6. Hi Amanda, this all reminds me of the way children behave. Oh I was really mean as a coach when I used to coach gymnastics - kids would do something that they think would impress me and I would roll my eyes as if to say, "really? Was that it? Oh please. That sucks." Then they would throw a tantrum of course, I love provoking kids like that, I'm just evil. But it's one thing if a 9 year old behaves like that, it is another coming from an adult.

      As for obesity in Europe, well I think there are two key factors: firstly, there is diet and some countries (such as the UK) have a terrible diet, our cuisine sucks so bad so most people either add loads of sugar to make stuff taste better or deep fry everything. French food is a lot more tasty, especially when you approach the south and have the Med influence, so that's a good start. The other factor is peer pressure: is there a culture of fat shaming? Do women feel the need to stay skinny or is being obese culturally the norm (like in America)? So due to a combination of those two factors, French women are definitely thinner than their British counterparts by a degree.

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    7. I think it was good for you to tell 9 year olds the truth, so they get used to the fact that praise has to be earned, it is not a right. Tough but fair. I have never thrown a tantrum over not getting praise in my adulthood, because when I was a kid I would show my engineer dad my little coding projects and he would say "this is ugly..." But I love my dad, so when he says something is ugly it isn't personal, and people are entitled to their own opinion. When an adult can't learn this lesson they are gonna be in for a really hard life.

      Lol so the British are just as bad as the Americans with deep-frying and adding sugar to everything. Yeah French food has really nice sauces and all the pictures look like small portions. Italian food is also similar in that regard (tomatoes!). Since the lockdown I've been thinking of how I can eat better, and I thought maybe its not just how much I eat but what I eat since Japanese and French people are so skinny but Americans aren't.

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    8. Don't get me wrong, I'm not just abusing my powers as a coach to be mean to kids, if they really do something impressive or have shown great improvement, then of course my reaction would be quite different. But I get the impression that often with these kids, they get insufficient time/attention at home with their parents cos their parents are either neglectful or just work too hard, so they are seeking it in every way they can from every adult they come across. Sometimes the adults are also responsible for creating this problem in the first place if they then try to establish rapport with their kids by saying nice things and praising them, then the kids get used to the fact that they can do anything no matter how lame and then still get praise for it - well not from me they won't.

      As for American food, holy crap - I remember the last time I was in America, I had to throw away a coffee I bought: a "fat free French vanilla latte", sounds nice? It was so crazy sweet it was undrinkable. Like whatever happened to people adding their own sugar into the coffee? Ironically they used the word French to make it sound fancy but no one in France would ever drink something like that.

      Turning back to the topic Amanda, since you live in America: have you experienced any anti-Asian racism personally? What have your experienced been like where you are?

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    9. Oh yeah when I had to take a training program with my university about "spotting abuse in youths" they said that a sign of emotional abuse at home is a child who constantly seeks attention from other adults. Its really tough being a parent giving the right amount of attention without giving too much or too little. Also, kids need to learn that you don't have to be good at something just for people to love you, or else they'll do stupid things like go into careers like acting/athletics/science just to get praise, which never works.

      Yes, American food is way too sweet. Also a "Large" size of any drink is like at least 5 mugs of drink and can be up to 500 Calories. Jeez no wonder Americans are fat. But Americans are so used to large portions and large amounts of sugar that anything less is considered "bland."

      Around my university, no not really. In fact I have worked with many students/professors who have had Asian classmates or professors during undergrad so are very respectful to other Asians, whether American or foreign born. They're even very tolerant if one doesn't speak the greatest English. In fact, sometimes I think the people at my university are more likely to clash with a white person from a working class background than a middle or upper class Asian/African since our school is relatively affluent compared to most of America.

      When I walk into a restaurant, 99% of the time I've never experienced racism. The only time when I saw racism was the time I went to a nearby Japanese Shabu Shabu restaurant which was owned and managed by an Asian woman. Of the 5x or more I've been to this restaurant, there was once this drunk white man came in (looked about 60s) and when the manager tried to speak to him he said "I can't understand Chinese!!!" even though she was speaking English with a slight accent. So the manager went to one of her white waiters and asked him to handle the clearly drunk patron, but after a while even the white waiter got fed up with this guy and asked him to leave for being rude. I live in a relatively liberal city (80% voted for Biden), and a relatively affluent/educated area so thankfully racism has not been a huge issue.

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    10. Btw even though Asians have the highest income out of any racial group in America (same as the UK I suppose), and are overrepresented in medicine, law, academia, etc., we actually have the highest income inequality out of all races too. Its because the high performing Asians were those admitted under a skilled-worker visa, who probably attended graduate school in the US before immigrating. Then there are the Asians who were admitted under refugee programs, and these groups have limited education and tend to work low-skilled or low prestige jobs. The first group are doing quite well and experience little to no racism, since they live in nice areas with neighbors who have been abroad and are used to interacting with other cultures. The second group is the one that tends to experience more racism since they work in jobs and live in areas with Americans that have limited education (think Trump or Brexit voters).

      People are welcoming of rich and high skilled immigrants, because they tend to spend a lot of money as well on the local economy. But a poor and low skilled immigrant is competing for jobs with local born Americans who have very little already, so I think this is where most of the racism comes from. Also, I notice people here are really sensitive about who is allowed to immigrate here, since they already hate undocumented Mexican immigrants, and view Asian refugees in the same light. I dunno how it is in the UK, this seems like a uniquely American thing where immigration is extremely thorny because of the phenomena of significant numbers of undocumented immigrants coming from Central and South America(about 12 million, or 4% of the population).

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    11. Don't get me started about seeking approval from work - I just had another intensely frustrating experience on a shoot yesterday (I'll talk about it another time), but trying to find validation from acting is really barking up the wrong tree. But in a nutshell, my husband and I were cast to perform some acrobatics in an ad, then the day before the shoot we had a fall during the rehearsal - I was fine but my hubby hurt his bad really badly, as a result we still performed in the ad, but they also invited a second pair of acrobats in and mostly filmed them instead of us as my hubby couldn't do much. Talk about being intensely frustrated because our skill level was much higher than our last minute replacement but with his bad back, he could do that much. So that's an example of how if I was searching for validation, I was barking up the wrong tree as shit like that happens. I'd be better off pursuing meditation at a Buddhist monastery in remote rural Thailand, clearing my mind in pursuit of spiritual clarity.

      Then this afternoon at work, we had a bizarre problem crop up with a client and the technical details are way too boring, but punchline: I was the hero who solved it. It was an accounting error that my colleagues (who are accountants!) made, I went through the figures and with a mix of math skills + experience, I spotted the mistake, corrected it and now the client is happy. Did I become famous for my accountancy prowess? No, cos only my colleagues know what an accounting rock star I am after today's performance. But hey, there's no denying I'm good at this (and that's why I have a job in banking), so I'm thinking I'm better off seeking validation in the office environment than in the acting world - it's called playing to your strengths.

      As for drunk idiots trying to be funny, once when I was in Argentina, this drunk guy ran up to me and yelled, "Gangnam Style!" Did I respond? No, I chose to ignore him because he was so drunk that he probably wouldn't even remember what I said to him even if I did engage him. Of course, being drunk doesn't give you a license to act like an asshole as such, but I can choose to ignore the drunk 'Gangnam Style' idiot because it wasn't worth it trying to punish him for what he did.

      And yes, the situation you described regarding the Asian minority is mirrored here in the UK for the exact same factors that you have described above.

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    12. Aww that's cute your husband is also a gymnast. But yeah, in a job where things don't work 90% of the time, forget about a steady supply of praise. In fact, one shouldn't even have to rely on external validation to feel validated, that's a sign of low self-esteem.

      And yes I hate anyone who seeks attention from others at work, and throws a tantrum after they don't get it. It happens in science a lot, there are many kids who've been coddled like crazy by parents and teachers from primary up to high school where very little can go wrong("Oh you got all As, you're so smart!"). When they get to graduate school where doing real science means failing 90% of the time, they crumble because now praise only happens 10% of the time and not 100. Ask your husband, in the high tech field a final prototype is made from the blood, sweat, and tears of many failed iterations, it isn't like high school where a test is over in 2 hours. So I get a lot of stick from some egoistic classmates/coworkers just for pointing out if something isn't working or not saying "wow" at everything they do. These people really need to be shipped off to some Buddhist temple to learn that "enlightenment comes from within", and to do things because they enjoy the challenge and not because they want other people to call them smart.

      Yeah people like us have the luxury of avoiding drunk racist people, so we can just ignore them in the few times it does happen and move on with our lives. I'm way more scared of structural forms of racism like losing out on an acting role because the Director/Producer/Writers think Asians are ugly, or losing out on a promotion to a managerial position because white people think Asians are too submissive to be leaders, etc. These behind the scenes type of racism aren't easy to prove, but have way worse consequences.

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    13. Oh gosh, yes I know what you mean about how work doesn't work out 90% of the time. I work in sales where I speak to loads of people who end up not investing with us, but as long as a handful do follow through and invest, then the results are already good. This year, I only had investments come through two clients which mean 95%+ of the people I dealt with didn't invest but given how much these two invested, the commission payments are enough to keep me very happy indeed. It's like my friend who is a real estate agent, he sells luxury properties and if he sells two such properties a year, the commission is more than enough to keep him quite rich indeed. Of course, I get frustrated when things don't work out but you're right, one shouldn't have to rely on external validation to feel validated. Still, it's only human to experience frustration and anger when things do go wrong. It's then a question of how we deal with those feelings.

      Actually I think I can do with some Buddhist temple meditation right now!

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    14. Omg I didn't even know that sort of rejection existed even for charming people. Usually I assume salespeople make at least more than 50% of sales, but if its only 10% one has to be really mentally strong and confident they can chase the next sale right after failure. I think I can tolerate if my idea fails just because of the laws of nature, but taking rejection from people is hard since humans are social animals. I think its fine to be frustrated if you fail, but its lame to keep comparing yourself to other people and what they think of you. External actions cannot be controlled, only internal actions. This is why I love philosophy, it eliminates a lot of pettiness in life...

      Hahaha my family is buddhist and since the lockdown they have been participating in prayer session via facebook livestream. Who knew temples were that tech savvy?

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    15. Well allow me to point you towards the case study of my friend who sells high end real estate: yes he is charming, he is also very good looking and of course that helps. But his clients who are trying to buy a new home will probably look at several options before deciding - they only need one home, but if they looked at 10 options, then that's a one in ten chance for him. If they looked at 20 options, then the odds fall to one in 20. The odds are not great and it's not a reflection on his sales skills or his social skills for that matter, it's just a nature of the process that makes it easier for him when the client tells him, "thanks for your time today, but we've decided to pick a different house." He knows it is not personal, he just has to focus his energy on the next client.

      And in terms of the money, even if just a few sales happen a year, the commission is enough to keep him in the lifestyle he is accustomed to. Mind you, this guy is in Houston, Texas so if you want the most good looking estate agent in the state to show you a luxury property, I will put you in touch with him. But what if you don't like the property he showed you? Even if you agree with me that he's sizzling hot, like he should be a super model and not an estate agent, you're still not going to buy that property just because you like him, right?

      As for the art of taking rejection at that rate, thanks for that thought - it will become a theme for a future post. I'm currently writing something about social media & social skills right now but that'll be a good topic for a future post, thanks!

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    16. If really charming guys like you and your real estate agent friend have a success rate of 5-10%, then what about less charming people? I sorta think about the dating world in this regard and the phrase "out of your league" where people pick who they choose to pursue based on success rate. And some people just don't even try because they're not confident they will succeed, and being rejected for a date hurts. But you have said in a previous post that people who aren't charming can still get a boyfriend/girlfriend if they just lower their standards so much until their success rate is not 0%. This also applies in science where the people at the high end take on the riskiest highest reward projects while keeping their success rate at 10%, while people at the low end take on much less risky projects with lower reward to make their success rate equal to those of their higher skilled peers. But in the end instead of settling or throwing tantrums over failing, people should just up their skill level to either raise their success rate or be able to pursue higher risk/higher reward goals.

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    17. All very valid points Amanda, I will definitely write a post in the very near future about all of this, ie. people who indulge in the kind of careers where you have a 5-10% success rate. Contrast that with my surgeon when I had my lasik operation, he said that this was a very standard low-risk procedure with 99.9% success rate and I was like, hey I only have one pair of eyes I don't want anything to go wrong please. So yeah some people in jobs like that need to get 99.9% success rates whereas others like you and I (and my estate agent friend) don't but it doesn't matter so much when we fail when compared to a surgeon performing eye surgery. So much to talk about on this topic: and yes dating, my dad aimed really low when he asked my mother out so based on that example, yeah anyone can get married as long as you keep on lowering your standards.

      I'm sure you know about apps like Tindr and Grindr - same principle applies, if you aim low enough, you can find a date but ooooh don't even go there girl, it is not worth it.

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    18. Oh yes, in some careers/jobs you must have a success rate of 99+%, but when people are unwilling to compromise in safety they will pay top dollar. For example, one can get really cheap electronics from China for almost every consumer product, (e.g. drones, toy RC cars, blenders, etc.), and the producers sell them on razor thin profit margins of <5%. However these really cheap electronics probably last at most a year before being thrown away, but some can be very innovative/useful. But for electronics that go into your car, where it has to last 10+ years and even a slight failure can result in loss of life, the electronics there has a profit margin of >30%, which is similar to the medical field. It may be boring and predictable (hey with high risk comes something new everyday!), but low-risk jobs with safety concerns certainly pay well and are suited for people who just want money but don't require a lot of mental stimulation from their jobs.

      Oh yeah Tinder is a really weird place sometimes, what I'm surprised about is that a guy expects me to be super interested in him just from a picture before even getting to know him. This is why I prefer to meet guys at social clubs/events or even at a bar, because there people at least try to establish a rapport before expecting too much.

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    19. Oh I did think of a simple example from Singapore where you have to be nearly 100% consistently successful and even having a bad day can cost you: we love our hawker food and imagine if you sell laksa, one day you are forgetful and you mix the ingredients for the gravy in the wrong proportion. So your laksa is too salty, too spicy, too sour - basically, it tastes wrong. The customers will not tolerate that, they'll demand a refund, probably never come back and might even leave bad reviews online. Thankfully, if you're selling laksa and making the same gravy everyday, then you're unlikely to make such a mistake but imagine you have to hire staff to help you out with the food preparation and they make the mistake. Even if you spot the mistake early, you have to throw away that batch of gravy and have to turn customers away until you prepare a new batch - so even at that level, you're expected to deliver 100% of the time and even a 1% failure rate is bad. I have been through various phases in my life when I did think life would be easier and I might be happier if I was involved in a career where I could deliver 100% all the time and not worry so much about failure but then that would mean sticking to very simple tasks that don't challenge me much, again that's hardly going to lead to a fulfilling career, is it? I remember when I used to coach gymnastics when I was much younger, I saw coaches who were just passing the time and keeping the kids occupied doing very simple things, playing games until "oh that's it for this lesson, kids go to the door the lesson is over". Whereas I used to try to teach them difficult skills and get disappointed when they cannot perform those skills, even when placed in a situation where I could achieve 100% success and take it easy, I automatically created a situation where I created failure - it's just in my nature and I suppose that's why I am where I am today.

      I think such online dating apps are good for people looking for hook ups rather than a proper relationship. After all, if you meet a guy whom you don't find physically attractive but you find quite interesting, I have two words for you: friend zone. There has got to be some level of attractiveness though different people have different standards.

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    20. Haha I think I create failure for myself too, but I have no regrets. A job like being a hawker would just be mental torture for me, I'm not even the type of person who can do simple tasks consistently and teachers always complained about that when I was growing up. But there are many people who want a hawker type job. You can even observe this in the school system where you see people taking classes that are very easy just to get an easy A, but don't actually contain any interesting or useful information. I'd rather take a class that made me cry and have to fail many times to learn something new, even if I could only scrape a B in it. I kinda think that the school system doesn't prepare people for either type of job though. It tells people that only Bill Gates or Mark Zuckerberg types of people are valuable, which is not good for the consistent type people, but at the same stifles creativity which is not good for the high risk/high reward people. If only we had a system that valued both and taught differently depending on the individual. It's this kind of life skill that isn't found in school, because there is no one size fits all, there's more than one niche in life.

      I dunno, the weightage for me is probably 50-50 between physical attraction and being interesting. But yeah I have met interesting guys who weren't very physically attractive that I didn't want to pursue. It's just that if I do meet a guy who is physically attractive but really boring, it's just mental torture to talk to them which kills the mood.

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    21. Btw Alex because I like creating failure for myself intentionally I'm not impressed when people tell me they have good grades and it "felt easy" for them. I don't find this interesting considering 80% of the stuff in school is useless and can't be used by itself to do cool things like cure cancer, cook delicious food, or close a big sale. It's not that I have bad grades, but if I feel like I didn't get a lot out of the education system it is irrelevant how easy/hard it was. But many people dream of having it easy to get good grades because of what they think society will reward them for. I know this sounds snobby of me considering I don't know what it's like to struggle to get good grades and be denied opportunities as a result, but respecting something only because others value it sounds very shallow.

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    22. Oh I wasn't even aware of this happening but this is in London and I know exactly where this took place: https://www.tnp.sg/news/singapore/singaporean-hurt-london-man-attacks-him-10k-road-bike

      Whilst this attack was harrowing, some Singaporeans will look at it and think, "see? What more evidence do you need that racism is a real threat?" The way I look at it, if there's a young guy riding around town at 1 am on a really expensive bike, then it doesn't matter whether he is white, black or Asian, he will standing out as a target for thieves who are desperate for money.

      The thing is though that this only got picked up by the Singaporean media because there is a Singaporean involved: it did NOT get picked up by the British media because it was an attempted robbery but the thief failed when the Youtuber intervened and there are so many crimes happening in the city all the time, we just become quite immune to it all. But a bike that costs S$10,000? Seriously? Who needs such an expensive bicycle? That's £5,430 - there's a lot more I could do with that kind of money than buy a bicycle. What would you do with US$7,535? Would you wanna buy a bicycle with that kind of money?

      I'll pick up on the issue of failure/success rate and our career choices when I do write that article thanks to your brilliant ideas Amanda. For now, I think this incident should sharpen our focus back on the issue of crime and racism in the West.

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    23. That article reminds me of a separate article by nytimes where delivery workers during the pandemic are being robbed for their electric bicycles: https://www.nytimes.com/2021/03/09/nyregion/delivery-workers-robberies-nyc.html

      This has nothing to do with race, the economy is just bad and people need money. The amount people were getting robbed for in new york city wasn't even 7000 usd, but a paltry 1200 usd. I don't know why Asians are so keen to assume that non-Asian countries will treat them badly. One thing I was surprised about Sg is how non-ethnic Chinese people are treated. Like at my University Chinese Singaporeans blatantly say things like "Malays aren't good at school which is why they go to ITE instead of university." Or "a workplace should have Mandarin speakers only so we can communicate more easily." And young college students would say that, not only the older generation. This kind of stuff is not reported or given the same kind of attention when it is.

      This makes me think of the phenomena of "white privilege" in America and it's counterpart "chinese privilege" in Sg. In America there was an Asian comedian who said "white people love camping or escape rooms so they can pretend the world is against them. For everyone else, life is already a struggle." This reporting of the incident sounds like an example of that. Had that bike been say a Ferrari, or even a Rolex (some Rolexes cost the same as that bike), no doubt the news would not been reported. But 7000 usd is crazy for a bike, that's the price of a decent vacation or even a used car lol.

      Oh okay, looking forward to that article about successes/failures.

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    24. Thank you Amanda, I need to surround myself with more sensible people like you. I did share that article on the Singaporeans in the UK Facebook group and I got a lot of sensible responses. Sure I was kinda shocked by the story as this crime happened in Chinatown of all freaking places, right in front of two places I go very often - a Japanese restaurant and a Malaysian bakery. The Malaysian bakery have Malay speaking stuff who always smile when I speak to them in Malay. But you've also hit the nail on the head - there's a pandemic, the economy is hit hard, people have lost their jobs and thus it is only natural that crime rate has gone right up. Oh and I do like your joke about escape rooms.

      The article about success/failure will come soon, akan datang. I have just finished the last article on social skills which was something I wanted to discuss for quite a while already.

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