Thursday, 29 April 2021

A 99% failure rate = great at your job?

Hi guys, I had a very interesting discussion with my reader Amanda. We talked about the difference between jobs where you can have a very high failure rate and still be regarded as normal, whilst there are jobs where you are expected to deliver 100% of the time. Now you may consider someone who fails as much as 90% of the time to be bad at his job, but allow me to use my friend Carl as a case study: Carl is an estate agent who does high end luxury real estate. His job is basically to show potential buyers these incredible properties and his success rate is low: it does vary from month to month of course but typically we're talking about a success rate of between 1% to 3%, that means out of 100 potential buyers he meets, you can count the number of sales he makes on one hand. Is Carl bad at his job? Hardly, he is making a lot of money as the commission from just one sale is a pretty big sum of money. He is charming, devilishly handsome, well-dressed and on top of all that, he's very good with using social media to promote new properties - in fact, it is hard to find fault with the way Carl is doing his job. The nature of his industry is such that any one looking for a new home would see several options before making a purchase and even if they do like Carl, they may not think the property he has shown them is their ideal new home so they may go with another estate agent who may not be as charming but has shown them a nicer property. Such is the nature of a sales job, the failure rate is very high and that is considered quite normal: so as long as he earns enough money to make a good living despite these circumstances, he's doing quite well. 

Allow me to talk about another industry that I know extremely well - acting. When a director is looking to cast an actor in a role, they would put a casting call out and probably receive submissions from a large number of agents. Let's imagine they receive about 250 submissions, they will then invite about 25 of the most credible actors to an audition The next step would be the view all the audition tapes and then create a final shortlist of about 3 or 4 actors who are very suitable for the role. They would then conduct what is known as a 'call back', which is a second audition during which they spent much longer, even up to an hour with each of those actors to see how they perform in order to try to arrive at a decision. In fact, I have even heard of cases where they do a second and even third call back when the casting directors just can't choose between two actors who are both excellent but bring different qualities to the role. Ultimately, they will have to pick only one but it doesn't mean that the others whom they rejected were terrible and untalented - in fact, I would say that anyone who even gets invited to attend the first audition is already doing pretty well because a casting director has decided that they're good enough to be considered. Such is the nature of the casting process where you will only have one actor who walks away screaming, "yes! I got the part!" whilst the others are all going to be disappointed, but it doesn't mean that they were rejected because they 'failed' at acting - no, it is a very harsh selection process and thus the odds of succeeding are extremely low - such is the nature of this process. Hence even the most successful A-list actors in Hollywood would still face this kind of rejection all the time during the casting process no matter how talented they are. 

Likewise, for someone like Amanda who is a scientist, her situation is quite similar to those involved in R&D (research and development) - these scientists are in the lab all day conducting experiments, trying to find a solution and their success rate can be very low, especially if they're trying to do something that no one has ever done before (like develop a cure for Covid-19). I am particularly intrigued by the story of Nikola Tesla - his story is too long to retell here and I would direct you to the Wikipedia page on him instead, but the bottom line is that he was a brilliant scientist who was pushing the limits of technology known to mankind at that time with his many experiments. Many of these failed because he was simply way too far ahead of his time, but a small number of those experiments did work and we still remember him for his inventions today. Was Tesla a bad scientist or engineer because so many his experiments failed? No, in fact he is considered one of the brightest geniuses of all time and he had the fortitude to pursue his ideas even when faced with a lot of skepticism from his peers. Now let's contrast Tesla to something from my childhood in Singapore: my favourite Singaporean dish is laksa - that famous seafood curry noodle soup and Singaporeans have a very clear idea about exactly how laksa ought to taste, smell and look, we know exactly which ingredients need to be present in a perfect bowl of laksa. So if you want to sell laksa in Singapore, you need to master the recipe, have all the right ingredients in the right proportions in order to satisfy your demanding customers. There are places which have perfected this art and have become quite famous in Singapore for the quality of their laksa, but we're talking about a stunning level of consistency when it comes to the quality of their product: every single bowl of laksa they sell is identical, made to the same standard. 

So imagine if you made the trip to Katong for their famous Katong laksa and the gravy was too spicy, too salty, too sour or too bland, you would immediately complain and demand either a replacement or a refund. You would not tolerate the failure or mistake in this case because you have paid for a perfect bowl of their famous Katong laksa.  The hawker would be quite happy to put things right, in order to make sure that you are a satisfied customer who would return in the future and he wants to maintain his reputation for excellent laksa. Carl and the laksa hawker would be at opposite ends of the spectrum: Carl could have a success rate as low as 1% whilst the laksa hawker has to maintain a success rate of 100% - yet if you met a man who was an estate agent, you wouldn't automatically associate him with failure. No, in fact there are plenty of people with jobs just like Carl in our society and what they do isn't considered unusual at all. As someone who works in sales, I am in the same situation as Carl since I work in sales - I speak to a lot of people and if I am able to convert a small handful of them into sales, then I can earn enough money to keep me in the lifestyle I am accustomed to. So the question really that some people would ask at this stage is what it is like to live with a 99% failure rate in your daily work? Don't you get upset, frustrated or angry on a day when you don't make a sale? How do you deal with that level of constant disappointment just trying to do your job? So why are some people suited for such roles but not others?

There are also jobs out there which fall in between the two extremes of 100% success and 1% success - I enjoy the videos of a Youtuber called 'The Tim Traveller' - he is a British guy who lives in France and makes quirky travel videos. He is multi-lingual and witty; he does a lot of research to make each video unique and informative - it is this winning formula that makes me want to watch his videos. Currently, he has 206,000 subscribers and has chalked up 24.8 million views on Youtube. He is lucky in that he is successful enough to become a full time Youtuber, but in a recent video, he explained how he is still completely baffled by how Youtube algorithms work. Last year during the lockdown, he did a video about the fake buildings of Paris and that chalked up over 5 million views in a very short period of time - it is his most popular video to date. He thought he had hit a gold mine, there are loads of people out there who are very interested in this (rather niche) topic. So he did a follow up video on more fake buildings in Paris and that one barely attracted 70,000 views (including me of course, since I watch all his videos). This has left Tim baffled as he can't explain why the first video attracted so many views but the second failed to do so - in fact 70,000 is a lot less than what his other videos usually attract, most of them manage a few hundred thousand views. It would have been reasonable to assume that the people who watched the first video would also want to watch the follow up but apparently not. The fact is Tim can put in the same amount of hard work into producing two videos on a very similar subject but get a totally different outcome. Could you do a task when the outcomes can be very uncertain, unpredictable and sometimes even defy logic? 

To understand this, allow me to bring you to my gymnastics club where my training has resumed: when I am doing skills well within my capabilities, I find them easy and there is virtually no risk of me falling. However, when I am pushing the limits of my ability and trying a new skill, then the chances of me actually getting right on the first attempt are virtually zero - I always tell younger gymnasts not to get frustrated with themselves when learning a new skill as there will inevitably be a lot of falling involved when you're trying an unfamiliar and new skill. In my gymnastics training, I split my time between practicing skills I already know how to do and trying to learn new skills - so there's always a lot of falling associated with the latter. I have seen some people try gymnastics and then give up: all that falling in the early stages of learning new skills becomes just too frustrating. They would rather take on an activity like jogging or swimming, where they already know how to run or swim and thus there's no element of failure when they exercise but by the same token, they're not learning anything new either. Gymnasts learn to cope with failure as we simply accept that this is just a part of the learning process: with each fall, we analyze what we need to do to try to improve and we try again until that one day when we finally master the skill. It is a personal choice whether you choose to pursue a sport like gymnastics where you are constantly taken out of your comfort zone or jogging, where you're staying well within your comfort zone. I would probably find an activity like jogging boring and I'd try to challenge myself to run faster and faster in order to set myself goals and targets, but hey, that's just my character, which is probably why I was attracted to gymnastics in the first place. 

Thus different people are attracted to different careers and sports - we pick a path that suits our personality. The hawkers of Singapore can spend years, even decades making the same dish over and over again until they perfect the recipe: some people might seek comfort in knowing that they are experts in what they do whilst others might find the repetitive nature of doing the same tasks over and over again, day after day to be way too boring. I have a friend who works as a chef in a big restaurant and she has to learn how to make a wide variety of dishes that feature on the restaurant's menu. Whilst she chose this career because she loves cooking, an aspect of the job she enjoys is learning new skills, such as working with new ingredients and learning how to prepare new dishes with them. If she left that restaurant and was placed in a hawker center where she only cooked one dish every single day, I think she would get bored very quickly. Likewise, my gymnastics club is part of a multi-purpose sports facility and I remember there was this instructor who led an aerobics class for older ladies in the next hall. She would use the same CD, do the same exact routine every time she did the class and I thought, well that's kinda lazy. Would it be too much to ask for you to even use a different piece of music for each class or vary the kind of exercises you did? Well, I did ask the instructor that question and she told me that the older ladies who attended her class didn't like to be surprised with new challenges and they came to her class knowing exactly what to expect - that was part of the reason they felt safe to come back class after class and so doing the same simple exercises over and over again was ideal for older ladies who lacked confidence when it came to sports.

So have we identified the crux of the issue here - is it just all about confidence then? These older ladies who attended that same aerobics class, well - perhaps I shouldn't use the word 'aerobics' lest it gives you the wrong impression. It's more like a movement class, the instructor puts on a medley of 1970s and 1980s pop music and they do a series of dance-like movements, all extremely simple of course. The older ladies keep coming as they get some exercise, they get to see their friends - for them, going to the class is as much a social activity as well as the chance to keep fit. They have neither the ambition nor the desire to try to learn anything new at their age, so the instructor is merely giving them the kind of lesson they want (and they are the paying customers). Going back to my friend Carl the estate agent, he makes a very small number of sales a year but the commission from each sale is a lot - Carl has the confidence that he will make another sale in the not so distant future in order to keep doing what he does, even if we know that 99% of the time, he will not make a sale but he has the confidence to keep going. He doesn't know when his next sale might happen but he has enough faith in his capabilities that it will happen because he is doing everything right. So is Carl's situation that unusual? I don't think so - imagine if an 18 year old student goes to university, she believes she will graduate in 3 years with a degree. It takes confidence to believe that she can complete the course successfully and pass all the exams. Sure, there is the possibility that she may flunk her exams and not graduate at all, but she just has to have enough self-belief to know that she has the ability to do what it takes to avoid the worst case scenario and to deliver a good outcome. 

There are some people who would not be able to put up with a high failure rate in their career - they would not be able to do what Carl does, instead they would need constant reassurance and encouragement to know that they are performing well. Perhaps then this has a lot to do with one's upbringing? I am thinking of my nephew's school environment - I have already shared a lot of horror stories about how awful his teachers are (such as using woefully outdated teaching material); he told me that the students are genuinely very afraid of asking questions in the classroom because the teacher would scold them for being stupid or lazy instead of answering the question. Of course, the teachers at his school are just plain awful, they should all be sacked of course but my point is simple: if that is your experience when any kind of failure (in this case, simply asking the teacher a question during a lesson = you've failed to understand it the first time the teacher explained) is met with such hostility, then you would become very afraid to fail. Whereas if the teacher is a lot more willing to deal with students who have questions and don't understand the lesson, then the students would be a lot more relaxed about dealing with failure in the future. Could it be that such bad teachers and parents are the ones responsible for adults being extremely anxious and afraid of any kind of failure at all - that they naturally gravitate towards jobs where a 100% success rate is the norm? Is this an aspect of our character building that we have some control over - or is this a nature vs nurture matter, whereby our innate preferences are hardwired into our subconscious?

Not all jobs that demand 100% success rate are the same - there is a wide variety of jobs that fit that description of demanding a 100% success rate. I have talked about the laksa hawker who is expected to deliver the same consistent quality when it comes to his laksa everyday and I have also talked about the aerobics instructor who delivers the same class all the time to her older students. However, it doesn't mean that people who do jobs in this category are somehow poorer or less skilled just because I had picked those two examples - in contrast, I remember when I had my Lasik operation in Singapore, the eye surgeon who operated on me assured me that he has a success rate of over 99.9%, so the chances of anything going wrong with my eyes during the operation was extremely low. He assured me that it was just another simple procedure for him and he performs many of those operations a day. I wanted to laugh at that because if it was really such a simple operation akin to getting a manicure, then why was it so expensive? But when it comes to having an eye operation, I like the sound of the 99.9% success rate because I only have one pair of eyes and I didn't want anything to go wrong with my eyes! Who in the right mind would undergo eye surgery if the doctor said that the success rate was as low as 50% or 30%? So that eye surgeon is performing a very highly skilled job with an impressively high success rate and needless to say, he is making a lot of money because he has a lot of very happy customers and he needs to continue having that great 99.9% success rate, in order for his eye clinic to keep doing such good business. 

I have seen people struggle in the wrong role before - I remember way back in 2003, there was this young guy whom we shall refer to as Keith (not his real name) in my office, this sales job was his first job out of university and he was so close to making his first sale when the deal fell through. To be fair to Keith, everything was agreed with the client and for no apparent reason, the client pulled out and changed his mind at the last minute without telling Keith why. It was intensely frustrating for Keith and he was very upset - a few of us sat down with him and said, "listen mate, it's not your fault, nobody is blaming you. You just have to move on and work towards the next sale, unfortunately this kind of thing will happen a lot in this job." But Keith quit before the end of the week which actually surprise me - of course he was upset, I would be as well if I were in his shoes, but the fact that he felt it was a good enough reason to find a new job was surprising to me because I thought he was an intelligent, charming young man who could have thrived in sales - he simply could not deal with the disappointment. I did manage to track down Keith a few years later and he had taken on an administrative job with a local government office; that did surprise me as I thought Keith was vastly overqualified to do a job like that, but he was a lot happier there. The workload was heavy, the hours were long but it was straightforward enough: his objectives were very clear, he could achieve a 100% success rate in that role and his boss was very happy with his performance. I thought that he paid a high price in his quest for job satisfaction: Keith was not achieving his full potential in settling for an "easier" (and relatively lowly paid) job like that, but in his mind, it was a price well worth paying.

Could Keith have found a better paying job in an environment where he could have a 100% success rate? Perhaps, that's a hypothetical question at this stage - Keith's approach to this problem was simply to look for a role where the job was so easy there was virtually no way he could make a mistake. His solution came in the form of taking a boring administrative job processing huge volumes of paperwork, okay so he achieved his objective of 100% success rate but does it bother him that he is earning very little in this role? Doesn't he ever get bored doing this kind of admin work? We go back to the settler vs maximizer theory: can this theory be used to explain Keith's mindset - is he a settler or just someone who lacks the social skills to cope with disappointment in life? Could we turn a settler into a maximizer by giving them the right kind of social skills to deal with such challenges? There is no easy answer to that of course: so imagine if Keith had trained to be a doctor specializing in eye surgery, his commitment to a 100% success rate would make him an excellent doctor. But no, he picked the wrong career path despite being well educated and perhaps the lesson we can learn from this is that young people like Keith need a lot more guidance and help when it comes to career advice and picking the right career path. I don't expect Keith to figure it all out for himself but surely there's no shame in asking for help? I imagine his commitment to a 100% success rate might serve him well in the hospitality industry - an exclusive five-star hotel would have that same level of commitment to make sure every single guest would be totally happy with their experience there. I imagine it would be the kind of work environment that would suit someone like Keith. 

So that's it from me on this topic, what do you think? What is your success rate in your current job? Are you in a position whereby you're expected to deliver 100% all the time or are you like my estate agent friend Carl, who has a remarkably low success rate of just 1% but still earns a lot of money? Could you deal with the uncertainty of not knowing when your next success will be? What do you think are the key factors that determine our relationship with success and failure? Have you ever met anyone like young Keith before? Are you more like Keith or perhaps you're more like Carl? And what more could we do to help young people who are like Keith? Do leave a message below please, many thanks for reading. 


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  1. I agree that Keith really ended up in the wrong role if he is as intelligent as you say. But he must have some type of misconception that only lowly paid jobs can guarantee a 100% success rate. Though to be fair in the West they seem to hold up the highest risk jobs in high regard, like actor/singer/model, whilst ignoring the low-risk but steady-pay jobs. In Asia its the opposite, where "iron rice bowl" jobs like being a doctor/engineer or even hotel manager/plumber are held in high esteem. Maybe if Keith grew up in Asia he could have easily found a low-risk high consistency job instead of assuming that he can't be successful just because he doesn't enjoy high risk/high reward environments.

    As for myself, I'm alright with failure because I enjoy the process of self-reflection after each failure, figuring out What went wrong?/Why?/What to do next time? It's a lot of work, but makes every success sweeter knowing it is the fruit of the knowledge gained from many failed trials. Not everyone is willing to put in that kind of work, some people would prefer to go on vacation or hang out with their family. In fact there have been many times where I've had to tell my friends/family "you wont see me for the next 5-10 days because my code/derivation didn't work and I need to figure out why." But after I do get a success I can take a pretty long vacation, so it makes up for it. Other people would prefer a more consistent calendar to their lives, and that's fine.

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    2. Hi Amanda, someone like Keith - well, he has to search a lot harder to find a role that suits him and since I focused on the job aspect, I also didn't talk about his girlfriend. When I last spoke to him, he was in a relationship with an older woman who totally controlled every aspect of his life. Like he wasn't allowed to meet me for a coffee without her permission and I thought, geez, that's not a healthy relationship. But he was so afraid of being single, so afraid of not being able to find a companion/girlfriend, that he gave her anything she wanted. Keith is messed up in so many ways, but I also refer you to the piece I wrote about why some brilliant people suck at making money. Keith is intelligent and went to a top university in the UK but he is book smart, not street smart. He was useless in the world of business and might be better off going back to university as an academic/lecturer, where he would be happier in that kind of environment where he could be in his element.

      In the West we hold up risk takers like entrepreneurs and celebrities as heroes and role models, whilst in Asia, people do tend to prefer the more stable professions which offer the kind of 'iron rice bowl' security. You know, I have an aunt who worked as an estate agent (she is now retired) and my mother used to think that was an awful job as there was too much uncertainty but I thought, yeah what's wrong with that? As long as she makes enough sales on average in a year, then that's fine.

      You have excellent social skills Amanda and thus you handle failure very well - I know there are people who start blaming others when they fail, because they can't bring themselves to blame themselves and take responsibility. But oh no, that's a very toxic downward spiral. Let me walk you through it.

      1. I failed in this task.
      2. It's not my fault though, I did nothing wrong.
      3. It is someone else's fault.
      4. I identify a list of people to blame for sabotaging my project.
      5. So I blame them, rather than take responsibility.
      6. Ooops, that's a long list of people on my blame list, I thought they were my friends, I guess they all really hate me.
      7. I'm running out of friends because everyone eventually ended up on my blame list.
      8. The world is a horrible place and I have no friends left.

      See what a toxic downward spiral it can be because people who play the blame game end up blaming everyone including their family members and close friends - I've seen others do that and it only leads to misery. That's why I resolve to do exactly what you do as it is a far more healthier way to deal with failure. You have great social skills to know what to do and how to handle this, but not everyone does.

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    3. That is a toxic relationship indeed. One should never make huge life decisions just for another person. I'm not sure Keith would survive as an academic/lecturer unless he was content with only teaching and not research, and only at a mid-ranked university. In research and at the high-ranked schools academia can be very very cutthroat. Your competitors won't hesitate to block you from publishing in journals, so you need the social skills of a lawyer to convince the journals that you are right and they are wrong, whilst still looking polite.

      Oh don't get me started on how Sg looks down on "risky jobs." Like I'm surprised they treat student athletes who want to go professional as losers who won't make a lot of money in the future, whilst the government buys athletes from other countries to play on their national team. They even look down on entrepreneurs, or even scientists who take too many risks. But without risk-takers you don't get big companies that start new industries and employ many people, gold medals in the Olympics, or even things like the Corona vaccine. I mean, the US threw billions at pharma companies in the hopes of getting a vaccine within a year. I doubt Sg would ever make the same investment, instead they just hope some other country makes something they need that they can buy later.

      Haha there are people who blame others. I have found even if it is someone else' fault, it might benefit me more not to blame them. And yes I have met a lot of old very bitter people who are very quick to attack other people when things go wrong, and I can see why they're so alone in their old age. It's almost like karma in a way, if you're a horrible insecure person then enjoy being alone and having people hate you. The evil people I'm more scared of are the ones who can attack people but also have self-control, e.g the Harvey Weinsteins of the world.

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    4. Hi Amanda, it's a shame about Keith because I thought he was a genuinely nice guy and quite intelligent, but therein lies the problem: you need more than just 'intelligence' to get by in this world. That kind of intelligence can get you very far at university in terms of scoring straight As when you're a student, but otherwise even in academia, you need more than just intelligence to deal with that competitive environment and deal with the competitors - that's when social skills come into play and alas, that's where Keith is lacking.

      If I may be honest, I too have been guilty of blaming others when I was younger. My parents did it, a lot of people I grew up with did it so I used to do that but I saw what it did to my parents - they end up bitter and imagining that everyone hates them. Because they blame anyone and everyone who crosses paths with them, the moment someone ends up on their 'blame list' (eg. the neighbour), then they imagine that this person (ie. the neighbour) hates them and if everyone in your life ends up on your blame list, you go through life thinking the world is horrible and that everyone really hates you, that's why they have plotted against you to make you a failure at life. What a bleak view of the world. The fact is most of the people on my parents' "blame list" don't hate them, they may not like my parents but they are definitely NOT guilty of having gone out of their way to sabotage my parents. They really don't care about my parents and are simply indifferent (I'd put the neighbour in that category). Go figure!

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    5. How did your parents survive schoolwork and group projects? Heck how did they even get along with colleagues while working as teachers? I used to own a dog and people online say you shouldn't get a puppy younger than 6 weeks old or else it will be spoiled and demanding to other dogs and people. This is because in the first 8 weeks the puppy has to learn manners by interacting with its siblings (e.g don't hog all the toys, don't take someone else' sleeping spot, don't eat all the food, etc.). Primary school is a bit like this for people where you have to learn to get along at the playground or group projects. But when I was in Sg I was surprised that a) there is little to any playground or even "recess" time for kids to go out and play, and b) almost all assignments are individual. As much as the school system says otherwise, humans are social creatures and you have to get along well to succeed in life.

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    6. Btw in the early days of reading your blog I used to think that because you went to UCL and joined the right companies then that's why you have a secure job that makes you quite wealthy. But the reality is that you have to face a 90% failure rate everyday, and there is no "iron rice bowl" that contributes to your wealth. It makes me respect you even more knowing that you've earned every penny while dealing with so much risk and failure.

      I know some people who resent any person who is doing well in life, especially the cases of nepotism and ill-gotten gains. But someone who works a 9-5 job with low risk but pays peanuts has no right to criticize someone who works a high-risk job where any drop in performance could lead to their sacking. Sometimes I have to be careful who I meet at public places and tell them what I do, because when I say "scientist" some people think I grew up well off and was handed a cushy job that society holds in high regard (I think this is the same for bankers). But people who think that have no idea of the cutthroat politics and competition that I have to deal with just to keep my job, or how many people drop out of my industry every year despite being highly-educated and "prepared" for it.

      Btw I think the Doctor and the hawker have different reasons for needing to be 99% consistent. The hawker has to sell many plates to make a decent living because 1 plate is at most $6, so they need a huge customer base and reputation for consistency. The doctor doesn't have to perform many surgeries, but just 1 bad surgery could lead to a major lawsuit and kick them out of the industry. So although the doctor has the same success rate as the hawker, their job is much higher risk because of larger consequences of failure.

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    7. Hi Amanda, I never really talked about my parents in their school days because they went to school in the mid 1940s and early 1950s - I really don't know what education was like back then, if there was any kind of group projects involved but we're going back and awfully long time here. That's how old my parents are and the world was an extremely different place back then.

      As for me going to UCL, oh it doesn't mean a thing. I'm a hustler, ie. there's a lot of hustling to make things happen, I rely on street smarts and social skills rather than the version you presented of a scholar from a top university being given everything on a silver platter. That might have happened if I went to Oxford or Cambridge but I also know Oxford graduates who have struggled since because doors may open for them, they may be given jobs on the basis of the Oxford-factor but they still have to deliver the goods and if they don't, they get fired. I've hustled my way through the world of sales for over two decades now and faced an extremely high failure rate, that's the environment I am in.

      Interesting comparison you made between the doctor and the hawker - one thing about hawkers is that they have low profit margins on per bowl of noodles they sell (like 20 to 50 cents) and they need to sell a certain number of bowls a day before they even break even and start making money; it is highly unforgiving and tough. Especially in the age of social media, people can leave bad reviews online and so you have to deliver 100% consistency and can't afford even one mistake.

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    8. Hmm, sometimes I forget that the education system is constantly evolving and improving. And how it was like 70 years ago could be way worse than what we have today, despite our complaints about it haha.

      I kinda think this is the difference between a school environment and the real world, the need to "hustle." In school if you pay enough attention to what the teachers are saying, you will know all the answers you need for the test. In the real world nobody will tell you the answers you need, instead you have to find them yourself or find a work-around for the test. I suppose I have met scholars who were useless in the real world and aren't working at the highest levels anymore, primarily because they think someone should tell them all the answers even when no such person exists.

      Oh yeah the hawker vs. doctor paragraphs you wrote remind me of your previous post "how can Vera get rich?" about how a low-end real-estate agent has to make more sales than a high end agent (like Carl) because the profit per sale is much lower. I don't pay attention to social media when it comes to food if I stumble upon a place by walking, but if I'm ordering Uber eats I definitely would.

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    9. Oh the impact of technology has changed the education so much between the time I was in primary and secondary school and by the time you did your primary/secondary education. In my parents' days, there wasn't even electricity in the school - so I can only assume that the quality of education then must have been just awful. But I digress. I don't think things are that easy for kids these days in terms of their education: I am teaching my nephew A level economics now and he's not going to get through the exams just memorizing the textbook - that was okay earlier when he was much younger but at this age he has to apply what he has learnt in order to answer some of the more complex essay questions. It gets harder and harder the older he gets and it's interesting to see him go through what I went through. I never thought he would study this subject but the system is such that he has to.

      I spoke to Vera recently, she is in the habit of blaming other people. She recently changed gymnastics clubs as she felt she wasn't improving quickly enough in her own gymnastics club and I just rolled my eyes - the problem isn't with the equipment or the coaches, it is entirely with her. She is a nice enough person but I prefer to keep my distance lest I feel tempted to tell her what to do to get her act together - she is still poor today.

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    10. I swear with people like Vera, I just don't know what to do. I don't condone her attitude but she's an adult and I don't wanna tell her what to do with her life, y'know.

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    11. I think its good if school isn't just memorization anymore, that's a horrible way to teach. But then again public school is a relatively recent thing. Can't believe Eton is called a "Public school" because in the past it was a school for children too poor to afford private tutors.

      Alex, have you ever written before about navigating Autism? I still have difficulty talking to strangers to befriend them because when I was a kid people would ignore me because I talked weird. As an adult I've learned enough social cues that people no longer ignore me, but now I have no idea what to say back or to even trust people because of all the times I was ignored. I admit I'll probably have to work much harder than the average person to navigate any social situation. But then again many other people have to work hard just to pass math class while I never have, so I shouldn't complain since everyone struggles at something.

      I see what you mean about Vera. There are some friends who I've stopped asking about their work situation or serious hobbies because I know I won't agree with their work ethic. As long as Vera doesn't feel envious about your situation compared to her's, then it's fine. In my friend group there's one guy who is our "Vera", and sometimes I can tell he's frustrated that the rest of us make enough money to go on vacation together while he doesn't. And we really hope he gets his act together, but at the same time think its highly unlikely.

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    12. Alex, you know I have autism and struggle with social situations, so I try to be sympathetic to people like Vera because nobody is perfect. Her work ethic is her fatal flaw, even if it isn't ours. But if most of the social interactions you have with her are no longer enjoyable, then maybe its time to let go of the friendship. With the guy in my friend group who is letting his career go by the wayside, the rest of us don't know how much longer he can be our friend. His best friend even once said to him something about how people have different "calibres", and how it's hard for us to understand his struggles and vice versa if we disagree on how seriously we take different aspects of our lives. Friendships are based on emotional connections, and if you find you can't connect with Vera on a deep level or at all, then is it really a friendship worth maintaining?

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    13. Hi Amanda, in response to your question about writing about navigating autism - I have the same response for you as when I asked the same question about navigating the education system. There is in fact a wealth of information out there however, we face the situation whereby you can bring a horse to water but you can't make it drink. It's not like academics and experts haven't produced books and studies on the topic of autism before - perhaps it is then a question of making the material more user friendly and accessible, but the bottom line is that a) there is a lot of books out there already on the topic and b) if you really wanna help someone, it's not a book they need, it's personal attention.

      Case in point: I am teaching my nephew economics. As a teacher, I am spending a lot of time on Zoom dealing with him so I know exactly what gaps there are in his knowledge and what I need to focus on. It's that kind of one-to-one attention he needs, not a 'better textbook' - there's no lack of good economics textbooks out there, just go to any bookstore but what I can give him is personal attention. That's the same thing that anyone with autism needs: personal help. Be it from a kind family member, old friend or health care expert. It is that personal touch and care that will make the most difference and I feel like people who write such books on the matter have the right intention but it is a futile attempt to help.

      As for Vera, she isn't a bad person. When I got Covid, she was the first person to get on the phone to say, "tell me what you need - medicine from the pharmacy? Food from the supermarket?" She does have her merits at the end of the day, she's just a bit messed up but aren't we all a bit messed up in our own ways? Nobody's perfect.

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    14. Sometimes I feel like there is shame in needing to seek out that kinda help with regard to social skills. In America there is less of a stigma around mental health, and I found my student health insurance even covers it. I had a horrible experience with the school counselor in SG, so that used to turn me off to getting proper treatment.

      That's very kind of Vera. I guess she may not be the best at caring for herself, but she's not bad at caring for other people. Yeah we are all a little messed up in some way. I may not be lazy at my career but I am definitely lazy to use the gym while someone like Vera works out regularly.

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    15. Hiya Amanda. I just wanted to point out that the help you need for improving social skills may come in the form of a good friend whom you can speak with about the issue - it would take that kind of hand-holding, that kind of personal attention in order for you to get the help you need. There isn't a one size fits all solution on the issue of social skills, everyone will need a bespoke solution and hence writing a book isn't as useful as say me, spending some time with my nephew to help him with his personal development because I am then able to respond to his situation and offer him help in a way that is specific to his needs. A book can never respond to your personal needs like that.

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    16. Thanks for the advice Alex. When I see someone like you who is autistic but happily married and with many friends, that's a sign life can be somewhat normal for high functioning autistics with enough effort and training. I never thought I could have that life when I grew up since I never talked to anyone in kindergarten or primary school up until I was 8 years old.

      So the reason I asked is because I recently have some workplace drama and occasionally my boss likes to say things like "how do you know how to solve that equation but not simple things like X, Y, Z when talking to people?" This has been happening for at least 3 years, and I think I'm old enough that my boss is getting sick of having to teach things like that. I'm gonna get professional help or at least go to social events when lockdown ends and observe people to copy their behavior. My best friend even said she can accompany me on Tinder dates in LA and observe me from a few tables away to give me feedback on my flirting skills haha, or save me from a bad date. Anyway my social problems amplified in America where people are way more sensitive to criticism/envy, and will not hesitate to throw public tantrums over it. Plus America has way more group work and coworker socialization than Asia in the workplace.

      Also, my boss likes to comment that I can act charming but I don't do it by default and he thinks I'm a jerk for it. The reason is that I'm simply autistic and in a few critical situations I'm using at least 50% of my brainpower to observe social cues and remember the right response to say. But I don't want to get an official diagnosis and ask my university's hospital to tell my boss "Amanda has autism, according to the American disabilities act you have to provide accomodations." Having an autism diagnosis follow my career for the rest of my life is also bad because other people could use it as an excuse to call me deficient or not take me seriously, especially if by law I get accomodations they don't. I'd rather be like you and keep it a secret but work super hard to overcome it and act normal.

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    17. Btw Alex how do you rate your nephew's skills as passing for normal? If someone met him on the street could they tell immediately he has autism, or does he sound totally normal when smiling and giving directions? I kinda wonder how his upbringing varied from normal children since his family have known about his autism since he was young, but y'all seem very loving and accepting. Btw I had to be trained to smile to strangers, only later did I find out that normal people do that automatically as babies/toddlers. Usually I only smile when laughing at a joke or if someone is talking about something I find very cool/interesting.

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    18. Hi Amanda, I fully empathize with your struggles but I also want to encourage you in pointing out that we're autistic, not stupid. We're smart enough to figure a lot our for ourselves. My social skills weren't always great - I remember how I got into a massive argument with a colleague whom I thought I got along with in my 2nd job when I was in my mid-20s. Good grief, looking back, it was entirely my job and even at that stage, as a working adult in my 20s, my social skills still were a far cry from where they are today. We keep learning, we keep improving and you clearly have the intelligence and aptitude to continue improving yourself. But yes, don't feel the need to figure it all out on your own - a buddy, a best friend can probably go a long way in help point out areas where you can improve. That's the kind of help that you can never find in a book or a self-help podcast.

      As for my nephew's skills, sigh. He still has some way to go. You know I've been talking to you about my work situation (and I just got a third job offer over the weekend when word got out that I left that old job and an ex-colleague got in touch to say "come work at the company I have joined, they would love you here"), well I did a Zoom call with my two sisters and nephew to teach him economics today. My two sisters asked me questions about my decision making process and knew how to communicate with me on the issue - my nephew was on the call and just avoided eye contact, he either stared into the distance or looked down on the floor. Like even if he was there, he didn't know how to participate in the conversation and he didn't have the confidence to even speak up and make a single point despite the fact that I would have been happy to talk to him about it as it is about the working world - something that awaits him in a few years. But no, I got nothing, not a word from him until I put on my teacher's hat, started the lesson and started asking him questions. "OK, please look at question 4 and as you can see it is asking you for blah blah blah." Only when I asked him questions like that, then he actually offers me anything. Otherwise, he just keeps quite quiet and doesn't participate in conversations even when with family members.

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    19. Yeah it's like the saying that you can't learn how to swim from books, you just have to get in the water with a friend/teacher who knows how to swim and can save you in case you drown the first few times. Come to think of it I am very good at social skills when talking to waiters or people in a customer/employee situation, or to present something in a work/school environment. But that's only because I went to lots of restaurants as a kid and my Dad would always take each meal as an opportunity to train table manners, or even bring his clients to eat with us to test me. So I'm not entirely hopeless, with practice I look even better than the average Joe/Jane even if it's not intuitive.

      Also it's comforting to know that it's okay to suck at this even in my 20s. Maybe in my 40s I can get good enough to impersonate a doctor at an airport haha. I was thinking of taking acting/improve classes for fun when lockdown is over, since me learning to "act normal" is a kind of acting.

      Dude I was totally like your nephew even at 18. If I don't know the family members on the other side of the call I'm too shy to pay attention or say anything, even if it's the polite thing to do. With autistics they think "I would have more fun playing videogames instead of talking, so I won't do it", while a normal person intuitively feels "if I don't say something it will look weird." Also my best friend says that sometimes people talk to her and she immediately says "I don't know what it is, but I can tell they're lying and that something's off." With me if I suspect someone is lying I consciously know exactly why I think that (e.g their voice was stammering, their eyes weren't smiling, etc.). But for normal people all their social processing is subconscious like breathing. It also means they can be tricked/charmed without knowing. Some days autism is useful because it's a great anti-bullshit shield.

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    20. Btw congrats on the 3rd job offer. It is like a competing company or a distributor? Since it's an ex-colleague I'm guessing the former since they recommended you for the role based on your past work.

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    21. Hi Amanda, whilst you can only learn how to swim in a pool with a coach (rather than from a book), the purpose of the coach is not so much to save you from drowning but to point out what you're doing wrong when it can be subtle. Let me compare this with when I learn a brand new language that I don't speak at all, like Arabic, vs the time I hired an accent coach to help me change my accent to sound more British. When I was learning Arabic, I was starting from scratch - I knew nothing, so I was a humble student who was paying attention. That's a good place to start if you are going to learn. But when I was changing my accent in English, I have spoken English my whole life and it was down to the accent coach to change my bad habits from Singlish. He would give me a passage to read and every time I had a mistake no matter how tiny or subtle, he would say STOP and tell me exactly why I mispronounced that word to give me a foreign accent. I would never do that to someone as it would be just rude to correct them, as long as I can understand their English, I just accept that they have a foreign accent.

      So for someone like my nephew for example, I have no qualms about doing the same and saying STOP every time he does something socially awkward - I'm approaching in the same way as my accent coach. Believe you me, it works - the accent coach did wonders to make me sound more white in a very short space of time and I'm kinda hoping I can have a similar impact with my nephew but the challenge of course is I don't spend enough time with him to help him more. So in the swimming analogy, the coach isn't there to save you from drowning but to split hairs and find fault with the way you swim, so every little fault is eradicated and your technique would be much better. Do you have a friend who is willing to help you like that? It is a big ask after all, to have that level of trust in your friendship.

      Oh I don't believe that acting classes teach you anything at all - people who know how to act have great social skills: they start by observing, paying attention and then they exercise what they have observed to know how to create an impression. There's a fascinating low-budget BBC reality TV show at the moment called 'This is my house' and it is all about acting. The premise of the show is this: the presenter Stacey turns up at a beautiful house and 4 people will say, "my name is Amanda (or whatever the name of the home owner is) and this is my house". And then Stacey would interview all of them in a casual manner like, "oh that's a beautiful painting in the bedroom, can you tell me about it?" Obviously, you have 1 real home owner and 3 actors - the home owner (ie. the real Amanda) is simply telling the truth whilst the other 3 actors are pretending to be the Amanda who lives in this house. The whole thing is filmed and shown to a celebrity panel of 5 judges - the celebrity judges will then have to judge who the real home owner is and which 3 are actors. If they identify the real home owner, then s/he wins a cash prize. If they pick one of the super convincing actors, then the home owner loses and the actor gets the prize. In the first series, I think the panel did quite well (they improved as the season went along) and the most common give-away is 'she is trying too hard, she is definitely acting'.

      My point is that people who would thrive in such a programme would definitely have brilliant social skills to begin with, whether they have had any training or not. Many of the 'actor' winners have not taken a single acting lesson - one was an cabin crew air hostess from Hong Kong who is not a professional actor, but fooled the celebrity panel into convincing them that she lived in this beautiful house in the English countryside despite her heavy Chinese accent; she never had a single acting lesson in her life but has obviously great social skills from years working as Cathay Pacific cabin crew.

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    22. It's like gymnastics: if you naturally are strong, flexible, well-coordinated and have all the right qualities for gymnastics, you will learn very quickly and become great in no time at all. But if you're weak, not flexible, clumsy and are completely the wrong body shape, even the best coach in the world can't teach you anything in the sport. Hence go for the acting classes if you think you will have fun but remember, don't expect the teachers to bring out something in you that wasn't there in the first place. A lot of it depends entirely on you and how good your innate talent is and they can't give you the talent if you haven't got it.

      The reason why I needed an English accent coach is because I already speak English, I needed him to unpick all the bad habits I had developed over the years. That's why you probably need a 'social skills' coach the same way you have been social all these years, you need a coach to unpick your bad habits the same way Ian my accent teacher had to weed out any influence of Singlish in the way I speak English. It's much, much harder to undo bad habits I've had for a lifetime than to learn something brand new - so in your case, it is necessary to know what needs to be done before taking the right approach.

      With the third job offer, it's also with another 'supermarket'. I had a long interview with a rival biscuit company last week, on Monday I am having two interviews with two supermarkets (one on the phone, one in person in London) and then the rival biscuit company wants to meet me again next week. But hey I am taking my time before making a decision. Right now, it's just nice to know that I am obviously talented and useful enough to be wanted by companies out there willing to pay me good money and that moving on is definitely the right thing to do.

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    23. I think people have the wrong impression when they think about acting - they often default to something as rigid as, "can you go on stage and do Romeo & Juliet in Shakespeare's English with the perfect accent?" Some people can indeed do that kind of acting but I think what that lady from Hong Kong did in winning 'This is my house' is a perfect example of how acting can come in all forms. It's about convincing your audience that you are who you claim you are even if you're just playing a character and in this case, that lady from Hong Kong said, "my name is Clare and this is my house", she was doing it standing right next to the real Clare who lives in that beautiful house; but she was so convincing that the celebrity panel of judges believed her more than the real Clare, who was telling the truth. The fact is sometimes it takes a certain kind of skill to play a role (ie. in my case, the ability to speak Italian when I did that doctor act in the airport), but otherwise, the rest is just social skills rather than 'acting' skills. A good actor will have brilliant social skills to begin with - an acting coach cannot give you good social skills if you didn't show up armed with it in abundance.

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    24. I didn't know you hired an accent coach in order to sound less Singlish. Would you say it helped you in your career? But yeah accent is something very difficult to change unless you grew up listening to those accents, considering many people who immigrate to different countries almost never lose their original accent. Good luck on the interviews! It's not like they're asking you to make a decision quick so just enjoy those trips to restaurants and being sweet talked until you finally pick the highest bidder/most enjoyable job.

      Lol that flight attendant really bossed it pretending that's her house. Interesting show, I might give it a watch some time. But with "lying", sometimes I feel like normal people do that a lot by default. I notice that normal people sometimes say things that they clearly don't mean, that the other party knows they don't mean, just to be friendly. Things like "oh if you're ever in London I'll take you out!", even if they just met the other person online and have no real intention of meeting up right away. An autistic person like me would immediately think "but I don't know them very well, they are either lying or coming on too strong. I am going to say nothing to hint I don't want to meet up." But a normal person's response would be to know the other party doesn't mean it but are trying to be friendly, and will also lie and say "sure, I'd love to meet up!" even if they also don't mean it and the other party knows this as well. I'll just call this "telling a lie people know is a lie just to be friendly", which I don't instinctively do because as an autistic I don't like lying. I can lie in this way around my close friends, but I call that joking around with people I trust, which I don't want to do with strangers. Or maybe I'm just not good enough socially to gauge context with strangers.

      I do have a best friend who actually saved me a lot during my primary to high school years by always stepping in to clear the air in case I said something awkward. I think this is why I didn't notice a problem sooner until we went to different countries after high school graduation. But no she didn't correct me back then because she's my best friend and she likes my normal self quite a lot. Though we weren't instant friends after meeting, it took 5 long years after meeting and getting put in the same group during math class for us to be friends. I think if I go on enough tinder dates with her observing from afar that would be a start. And she did tell me she won't hold back in her criticism.

      Other than that I am booking appointments with mental health specialists who deal with autism, who are literally going to be paid by my health insurance to help me get better. Though I don't know if they would come with me on "field trips" to bars and stuff to observe my behavior and help correct it. I wish they did... Else I'll have to secretly record my trips to bars and stuff talking to complete strangers, and bring it to my sessions to ask what I did right/wrong. To be fair, I am a little disappointed to find out that I am "disabled" according to society, since my entire life I haven't struggled in school and expected the working world to feel the same. But oh well, we all have our faults. I have two friends with clinical depression, and another one who has both ADHD and OCD. High functioning autism doesn't seem half bad compared to other mental issues I could've been born with.

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    25. Years ago in 2005, I had a chance meeting with Ian the accent coach when our paths crossed at work and I thought, okay I am humble enough to know I can improve the way I speak English by getting rid of my bad habits. So Ian helped me and of course it has been massively helpful to sound a lot more British. I code switch - so when I am at work I speak British English but when I am teaching my nephew for example, I tend to use a more Singaporean brand of English to make him feel comfortable. After all, I'm coaching him for economics not English. I'm leaving his English exam to his mother where she is more than capable of helping him - for his English exam, it is only a written exam so he can have a crazy strong accent and it doesn't matter, there is no oral exam component for him. But for me, I work in sales so of course my accent is terribly important. If I was a coder who sat by my laptop all day writing code, then my accent becomes totally irrelevant.

      As for the interviews, I'm in a privileged position whereby I have at least two companies saying to me, "don't work for them, work for me - how much are they offering you? I'll pay you more." So I am taking the time to consider my options, I am not rushing into a decision and I might even take a domestic holiday within the UK now that I am between jobs.

      The same way I got personal help with my accent, there's a lot of help you can get and don't feel ashamed to ask for help. Even with something like learning a foreign language, sure you can teach yourself a new language, but it's far easier if you can get a good teacher to help you along and you'll learn a lot faster with the guidance of an excellent teacher.

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    26. Oh yeah I forgot about the sales aspect. Since I have an American accent that I'm used to hearing in school, salespeople in Singapore have more success getting me to buy things if their accent isn't too Singlish. I suppose in the UK it is extremely important because the average British person is more likely to respond to a British accent than a Singaporean one. It's nice how attentive you are to your nephew and his needs. Some days I wish I was that caring by default, but I'm not and have to work on that.

      Lol you really have started a bidding war over your services. I would be too shy to tell people how much others are willing to offer me, but I think you know how to negotiate that pretty well. Where do you plan to go in the UK? Aside from London I'm not sure where in the UK is much of a tourist destination except for Brighton by the coast, or Scotland. The weather is at least starting to get nice, so plenty of good weather for walking and sight-seeing.

      The thing about me is that I tend to be afraid to ask for help because when I was a kid and even at work people like to say "you're smart, figure it out!" At the same time, I was reading about how some celebrities have kids with Autism and how much extra time/money it costs them to accommodate such a kid. I even read about that on your blog with your sister and nephew. It made me think that although my parents could've done more, I wouldn't want them to give up their social lives just for me. I tend to do that where I think I'm a strong person who can figure things out and don't want to be a burden on other people. But this is like trying to learn how to hunt deer while being a blind person.

      Also, at work I see other people get so much accommodation for math/coding skills help, where I'm the one who is expected to provide that accommodation. How come nobody says to them "you're smart, figure it out"? Maybe because problems with math are more common in the general population than problems with social skills.

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    27. Hi Amanda, I think there are many different ways to become good at sales - you can be very good at getting your clients to feel comfortable with you and earn their trust, you can impress them with your technical knowledge about the product and the problem with me is that I tend not to be as technical as some of the others, so I have to go down the 'social skills' route like I remember little things like the name of their kids, where they go on holiday and so for example, this client said to me, "can I speak to you at 2 pm on Friday, I ought to be back from the dentist by then." The first thing I ask when I have him on the phone, "how was the visit to the dentist?" It's just little things like that and if I can use my talents to imitate their accent to make them feel more comfortable with me, then that's the kind of thing I would do to get closer to them. It's not for everyone of course, but it is what I do.

      For me, I'm not actually dazzled by the numbers they are putting in front of me - I'm seriously considering where I would be happier going to a rival biscuit maker or having a change by going to the 'supermarket' type operation; I need to work out which role would suit me better. As for holidays in the UK, since I live in central London, I would be seeking somewhere with nice scenery: that takes the form of mountains, beaches and lakes. There are many places where one can find some combination of that and it's just an excuse to have a holiday, even if it is visiting a scenic spot with some lovely scenery for a long weekend. I've not had a holiday since that trip to Italy where I pretended to be a doctor at the airport.

      Just remember, I'm not 'cured' of my autism, I've learnt to cope with it. The analogy I always use is the blind skiers at the Paralympics who fly down the side of the mountain at crazy speeds whilst seeing either very little or nothing at all. They have found a way to ski down the course by memorizing every detail of what they have to do so they're not reliant on seeing, but simply focusing on the technical details of how they ski. They are still legally blind of course. Likewise, for an autistic guy like me to do sales well - I'm just like that blind skier: I have managed to adapt well.

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    28. Oh so there's not just one type of salesman, interesting. Little details like that do make people feel appreciated. Btw, I'm surprised how western countries focus a lot more on "service." I remember in SG I had an American colleague who told me she visits the more expensive Indian hawker stall, even if it has the same food as the Indian hawker stall downstairs in the same mall, only because the hawker smiles and says hello to her each time she orders food.

      Yeah salary isn't everything in a job. A lot of times not having to hate 8 hours of your weekday every day is worth taking a paycut. Oh so you like scenery. I prefer scenery + having a lot of outdoor and indoor activities, but social activities are hard to do during covid. I did hear the UK countryside can be very beautiful though, at least from what I've seen in movies.

      I like that sentence about "coping" with something you have. People don't have to be perfect, they just need to be able to get the job done. Its like how there are many ways to make a sale and it doesn't matter how it was done, only the amount of dollars earned. Although it feels daunting to change up how I interact with people, I try to think of the benefits I can get (promotion, less workplace drama, more friends, etc.) instead of focusing on the time/energy I have to put in.

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    29. A salesman has one objective - to make you buy and there's several ways they can achieve that. Heck, I remember years ago I had this colleague Cristina who used to flirt with her clients: it was a lot of "if you sign the contract, we could go out and celebrate, nudge nudge wink wink". I don't think she ever went through with it with her male clients but I thought it was kinda cheap to dangle the possibility of sex if the client bought from her, but it worked actually, I'm surprised. She mostly targeted older men who are quite surprised that a younger woman like her would flirt with them. But it just goes to show, people in sales will use whatever it takes to close the deal. I can't ever go down that route of course and I think it has its limitations.

      If I was visiting an exotic country like Bulgaria, Turkey or Tunisia, then everything becomes an adventure - even getting some groceries from the supermarket can be fun because everything is so different from home. So I can take joy in experiencing the urban life when visiting such places because the experience is quite different from home. But if I went to another British city, then I'm going to see the same shops in the streets - I walk into a supermarket and it's identical to the one I go to near my home. That's why if I am to take a domestic holiday, it has to be about the scenery. I've done it a few times in the last 24 years of living in the UK (obviously I prefer foreign holidays), these holidays usually involve mountains and beaches, sometimes we visit friends/family or attend festivals - but given that we're not supposed to mix households and festivals are out of the question this year, I guess I will look up a nice place for a weekend away either in the mountains, on the beach or near some nice lakes.

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    30. That is a cheap tactic, but I've seen male salespeople use it on women several times too. "If you stay for this pitch I might give you my number..." To be fair, considering the 95% fail rate of sales even at the highest level, I can see why yall will try anything and everything to close a sale. But of course the flirt tactic only works up until a certain age when people no longer are attractive. In the case of those older men, don't you think its a form of ego massaging? I'm pretty sure some older men would like to believe they are handsome enough to get an attractive woman, so when one does flirt with them they will believe they are actually attractive people instead of thinking this is purely business. You've said this before about young attractive boys texting you on instagram.

      Oh man I really miss international travel... Domestic is not bad but like you said some parts will not feel as new. A weekend is not a bad option since you can't do much anyway, even though I know you're used to taking long-ass holidays. Hopefully we'll be out of this pandemic soon. Btw I read Spain or Italy may be accepting American tourists soon because our vaccination campaign is going well, but until their situation is under control I'm gonna avoid international travel.

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    31. Hi Amanda, I remember how Cristina got through to this CEO Eric by flirting with him - I actually took a look at Eric's profile on his company's website and WOAH he was like this really old man in his 60s. Fat, ugly and pretty gross but Cristina had no intention of sleeping with him of course, she was just showering him with the kind of attention that he probably has not experienced in decades given how no woman would flirt with someone who looks like thaaaaat. But it worked, Eric did spend money with Cristina and he would have never bought from someone like me. Hence Cristina has tools that I don't have - she has every right to use the tools at her disposal to make more money. That's why she and I do sales in very different ways because we're very different people.

      As for the young guys messaging me on Instagram, they want a sugar daddy. Oh please, I don't actually believe for a second they find me physically attractive unless they have some kinda fascination with older bald guys. And to be fair, I know it works with some people who enter that kind of sex for money transaction with an older person. I'm not rich enough to want to go into that kind of relationship and I might find that weird, imagining having sex with someone knowing that they don't like you and you're just a paying customer. How do I even begin to unpack that when you mix sex into it?

      At least America is really vast and you can have everything from the Rockies in the winter to Florida/Hawaii in the summer. They are going to make an announcement in the coming week regarding new rules for international travel and I'm hoping for some kind of travel corridor to be announced, possibly with another country where everything is under control and they have already vaccinated a lot of people. Possibly countries include Israel, Malta, Iceland, Serbia and Hungary.

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    32. To be fair Alex, I'm still not extremely comfortable with the thought of people only valuing me for eye-candy reasons. Because somehow society has taught me that you can either be a pretty woman or a smart woman but not both. But when I see politicians like Justin Trudeau clearly take advantage of their good looks, I guess its nothing to be ashamed of if people like you because you are attractive.

      At least you don't take it personally that there are young guys who see you as a meal ticket. There are people who not only take it personally when gold-diggers approach them, but also take rejection by an attractive person extremely badly. E.g Piers Morgan and his feud with Meghan Markle which lead to him being fired. As for people who pay for the live-in boyfriend/girlfriend experience, I think they just want a one-way relationship to make themselves feel better. Think of it like some very expensive but low-tech virtual reality videogame where you can live out the fantasy of being with someone way more attractive than you. It is not a two-way relationship, but as we have talked about in the past many people have one-way relationships and are satisfied with them.

      Yes, America is huge and I really wanted to visit a few different places (go camping, surfing, etc.). I suppose the camping is a safe-social distancing activity if I only take 2-3 other friends with me. The UK is a pretty small country but its so close to Spain/France/Italy that tourism is not a big issue. Hopefully you'll get to visit other European countries soon, if they work out some kind of system with vaccine passports. I think life will go back to normal by the fall, my university is already planning all in-person classes by then.

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    33. Aaah Amanda, if I may respond your first point - that's an Asian thing. I can see how my mother was affected by this: my mother knew that she wasn't attractive, she knew that my father's eyes may be attracted to more beautiful women. So in her mind, she created this system whereby a beautiful woman = she is a slut, she is a prostitute, she has loose morals, she is trying to seduce rich men by putting on so much make up and perfume. But when she sees an ugly woman = she is chaste, she has good morals, she isn't vain, she isn't wasting her money on mini-skirts and expensive cosmetics. I remember when I was 9 years old, I made an innocent comment that one of my classmate's mother was very pretty - I later found out that she worked as an estate agent and looking professional was part of her job, she had to project that image of a classy agent who could sell an expensive property. Oh my mother - without ever having laid eyes on my classmate's mother - called her a whore, a slut, a loose woman, said that women like her were going to hell for their immorality and sins. My mother HATED beautiful women, of course - the answers is simple: my mother is ugly and hence jealous of pretty women. But she would never admit that in her head, so she went out of her way to demonize pretty women. I remember once she lost her temper with my sister because she accused my sister of using perfume - my sister said no, I washed my hair with the shampoo and that's the fragrance from the shampoo you are smelling, I don't even own any perfume. My mother then took the bottle of shampoo and threw it out of the window, calling it the work of the devil. That's how my mother deals with her self-image issues, she demonizes other people instead of helping herself.

      I can react in two ways, I can either agree with my mother's attitude or I can go the complete opposite direction and become the object she hates - obviously, by default, I would do the complete opposite so I am shockingly vain when it comes to buying new clothes to feel good about myself and then projecting that vanity onto Instagram. I know I'm not 21 and a supermodel, but the image on Instagram is "look at me, I have all of these expensive clothes and I dress better than anyone you could possibly know out there because men simply don't spend that much on clothes, unless they're super gay and vain like me." Anyway, I feel the reason why you feel uncomfortable with the whole thing about using your sex appeal to help you get what you want is a hangover from my parents' generation because certainly, my mother's attitude towards beautiful women isn't unique - she's a product of her generation.

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    34. I wrote about this a long, long time ago when my mother visited me in my house in London - I have a nice bath room with loads of natural night, so I can put a lot of plants in there. So this bathroom is spacious and green, beautifully decorated but my mother was very uncomfortable taking a shower in there because it has a window. And I was like, duh the window faces a wall on the opposite side of the building, nobody could possibly see you and then beyond the wall, there's a big field with trees so someone would have to climb one of those trees and use a pair of binoculars (or perhaps use a drone) to watch you shower. And to be fair, who on earth is going to go through that much trouble to see you shower when there's so much free hardcore porn in the internet?

      But no, my mother freaked out about that window in a totally irrational way and I think this has got to be a cultural thing - think about the way Muslim women are pressured to cover up or risk being labeled as immoral. So there's a lot of Asian cultural baggage we have to unpick when it comes to your feelings towards your image - a lot of that would have come from your parents and their culture, because many of these attitudes would have been drummed into your head as a young child.

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    35. Surprisingly my mother is very pretty and vain and uses her looks almost all the time to get what she wants. Growing up she really resented how I was socially awkward and didn't take care of my appearance. But that's not the reason why I am uncomfortable with (my own) sex appeal. I grew up fat and boys would joke with each other about being stuck with me if no other girls were left. Then magically before university started I lost a lot of weight. Suddenly at university boys would stare and smile at me for no particular reason. People started seeing my good grades as a good thing instead of a "weird nerd thing." My first instinct was to resent people for being so shallow, like why are people nice now and not back then?

      Btw I have never resented other people for being pretty, I just didn't want people to only look at me for that because I'm afraid they'll ignore everything else about me like they did when I was fat and ugly. But I've met more people nowadays and not everyone's shallow and always judging people based on how perfect they are. And I do really like art as a hobby, so nowadays I just consider my appearance and fashion sense as some elaborate art project that I don't mind other people admiring. But it takes time to erase old traumas... I'm still scared I'll meet a dude who will lie about everything to me only because he thinks I'm pretty.

      Btw I think its great you're very liberal and open about dressing nice for sex appeal. In Asia this would be considered "unmodest", and in fact we have very little sex in advertising. No wonder the birthrate is so low haha, kids these days don't know how to charm each other. Btw, its not just Asia that has a low birthrate, "family oriented" countries like Italy do too. It shocks me that the UK has a birthrate of 1.7 children/women while Italy's is 1.3 children/woman, considering how families are so close in Italy. I think its because the British are out having more dates than the more catholic conservative Italians.

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    36. Just a quick update for you Amanda: I met up with 'Mr Supermarket' today and he intends to match the job offer from 'Mr Rival Biscuit Factory; - interestingly, he is buying up a bakery (not literally, but we've started going down this path). A supermarket can expand two ways: firstly, it can open more branches, or it can expand up the supply chain by buying bakeries that supply them with bread, cookies, croissants, puddings etc. This is what Mr Supermarket is doing and he wants to put me in the bakery where I belong.

      I asked him about the firm that has already offered me a job and he said, "they have only one good product, you want to be a salesman with many good offerings and I will put you in a much better position than them." Oooh, I have a follow up meeting tomorrow and I'll have to make a very difficult decision.

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    37. LOL, anyone who stumbles upon this will actually think that I am a baker and not a banker, that my expertise is in baking and not banking. But it's a good analogy.

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    38. That's a nice turn of events, I take it you would prefer to stay as a "baker" than move into some distribution type role. It kinda reminds me of how big tech companies like to buy up smaller companies instead of hiring staff and developing a new product offering in a new industry completely from scratch. And yes LOL they would think you work in culinary arts instead of banking from this analogy, but bread is much easier to understand than exactly what you do. I have read prior blogposts where you explain the kind of product you sell and who you sell it too, but I still didn't get it. My best guess right now is that you match potential investors with the right investments, and take a commission from each sale. And each investment is very niche so is not something you can just put in a shop window of a website and wait for a buyer to be interested.

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    39. For me at this stage, I have two similar options and thus I am going to base my decision on two factors: the first one is whether or not I like the team, the second is the quality of the product. But it is good to be in a position to choose, of course and I am taking my time.

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    40. Oh and if I may make one little point about vanity - it's not entirely about pleasing others but as much about pleasing yourself. It's about how you feel about your self-image. Take something like shoes for example: what is your priority when it comes to the kind of shoes you choose to wear? Do you prioritize comfort? Style? What others think? What kind of image do you want to send to the people you meet when they notice your shoes? I like the way the word in vain in Chinese is literally "love beauty/beautiful" - it is the love of beauty, it is one who loves being beautiful = vain. The fact is I am vain, extremely so - but often I do it for me to make me feel good about myself, rather than to please others around me. Which is hardly surprising of course, because vanity is regarded as a negative trait like selfishness, ie. I'm looking good to feel good about myself when I look in the mirror, I'm not trying to please others.

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    41. I guess you can ask to get to know the team since they've already offered you the job. You're so spoiled for choice haha. I like that Chinese definition of "vanity." In the west the word "vanity" has more negative connotations, usually where people think they're better than other people who are uglier than them. Scholarly pursuits don't have the same implications, because as a learned person you're not supposed to look down on people who are less educated. Though to be fair I've seen people be just as snobby about money/grades as people who are snobby about looks.

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    42. Hello! I have a third job offer - a former colleague found out that I left and she had gone to join a new company, she then told her boss, "Alex is brilliant, you will wanna offer him a job." Funny thing is I know her boss as well (small world in my industry) and so he sent me a Linkedin message, I have a call with him on Friday morning and so now, I have three offers but I will not rush into a decision, even though my heart is already pointing me towards one of the companies already.

      As for 'vanity' - I prefer the Chinese version as it is less derogatory, it isn't seen as a totally negative trait, it is merely the love of beauty. You take pride in your appearance because you like to be beautiful - what's wrong with that? Whereas in the West, vanity is one of the seven deadly sins.

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    43. Wow Alex, how do these people even find out you left your job? Unless you keep in contact with them on LinkedIn and they got a notification that you left your former employer. Either that or salespeople of your caliber are difficult to find, so as soon as one becomes free the other companies want to snap them up.

      Oh vanity is not a 7 deadly sin, but "pride" is. Pride is basically vanity but not just about looks, but also about money, achievements, social status, etc.

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    44. Hiya Amanda. Well Tallinn is a tiny place - so as I found out, I still have one friend in the office who kept in touch with a former colleague who left last year, so when they met up and exchanged gossip, my former colleague was told exactly what happened and it's not like I updated my Linkedin or anything like that. I didn't even do that - I'm just taking my time to make up my mind and nothing is official at this stage. Anyway, she has facilitated a phone interview with her new boss for Friday morning so let's see. It's not my first choice but if the offer is on the table, I'll be silly not to at least take a good look at it, right?

      And my bad, oops regarding the 7 deadly sins. I often turn up at a meeting and people will say, "oh you didn't have to wear a suit and tie for this meeting, we're very casual in this company etc." And I'll be like since when was this about you? What made you think I dressed up to please you? I'm dressing up for me, I'm doing it because it pleases me. I wanna strut down the street in an expensive suit feeling like a billion dollars.

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    45. Ah okay, so it's a very small world in your business. Anyway that was nice of your former colleague to facilitate an interview. Always good to shop around with jobs. Sometimes I think I'm too eager to accept the first offer I see just because I want to get the science over with and evaluating every possible job for "fit" takes forever.

      I like what you said about dressing for you and not anyone else. I think because many people don't have good self esteem they tend to assume when other people do something it's always to gain attention when it's not. Also maybe because many people don't really have a "passion", and only do things because society says it's a good thing, and resent when others do.

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    46. Hi LIFT, I just skimmed through your conversation with Amanda, and please pardon me if I missed out certain pointers or I repeated certain pointers. I read the part where you said that Vera is not talented at gymnastics, yet she wants to find another gymnastic coach to train with etc. Actually, I can relate to what you said. I have a friend who paints in a very amateur manner, but he always asks me if it is possible to sell his paintings. However, I am always very tactful with him, and I told him that he could use his Skillsfuture credits to take up some classes with Lasalle or NAFA to improve his skills. But recently, I am quite exasperated with him and I guess I decided to stop giving him as much advice. He has shifted his focus to photography and other things, and I told him that the market is quite saturated, and that no one would teach him for free. He would have to start at the bottom and really work very hard to hone his skills, maybe through attending courses, networking with fellow photographers, and learning through experimentation. He always has some business ideas, but he may not have the skills to execute it. I find the same problem applies to me too, hence, I actually make an effort to improve my skills, ie. oil painting. Even then, I don't think I am at the level where I can sell my paintings or offer commissioned work to customers. His strength is actually in numbers and possibly, accounting, but I feel that he might not be living up to his full potential. I met him in a private university and he does have dyslexia, so I guess that hinders him in some way. Then again, being tactful and diplomatic is a good social skill to have-but when do you decide to start being frank and honest to others?

      I used to get very offended whenever other people criticized my intelligence or my abilities/talents, but whenever I meet maestros/people who are really good at what they do, I end up humbly accepting constructive criticism. But then again, there is a difference between unwarranted criticism and constructive criticism.

      For me, I feel that I am generally not very talented in many areas compared to a lot of people in this world, but I am blessed to have the financial support from my parents to be able to take up singing classes, baking classes, oil painting classes etc. Sometimes when I look at other people and I think that they are way less talented in me than general, then realize that they may have even fewer resources to succeed, ie. living in poverty. Well, that is besides the general g factor, for fluid intelligence, where some people strike the genetic lottery and some don't. I feel like I sound like a covert narcissist already. I am probably a compensatory narcissist.

      Sorry if this post sounds very messy and unstructured-it probably does.

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    47. Hi Bella, thanks for your comment and allow me to respond to the following points:

      1. My issue with Vera is that she refuses to accept that her lack of progress in gymnastics is due to her attitude during training. Don't get me wrong, there are situations where we can blame the coach/teacher (such as when I realize just how lazy my nephew's teacher in Singapore is, I am aghast), but having seen Vera in training, I think the root of the problem is when she starts blaming others instead of taking personal responsibility when things don't go right and she starts finding excuses to explain why it is not her fault. As for when one starts being frank and honest with others, it's a tough one because I don't think someone like Vera wants to listen to my constructive criticism. She is a grown woman in her 30s, she is an adult, not a child - so I just leave her to her devices and I back away from offering any kind of criticism. I refer you to my latest post when I talk about how we are quite ready to criticize young people as we feel they can still change & learn because they're still young, but with adults and especially older people, we just back away and say nothing, even if we can see them making a mistake because older people respond less well to this kind of criticism. The key thing is to keep a young mind, to have a youthful outlook regardless of your age.

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  2. Hi LIFT,I was wandering around in Punggol the other day,and I found myself slightly lost. However I managed to find my way out. I was wondering,what would you do if you were a woman who found herself wandering into the dangerous parts/neighbourhoods of the US/UK as a citizen, a student/highly skilled worker who migrated overseas for work,and a tourist? What would you have done in such situations?(Assuming that you are alone,and it's the middle of the night)

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    1. Hi Bella, let's put it this way. It would be highly unlikely that a woman would wander out of her home with no plan and just keep walking in a random manner (and ocassionally hoping on any bus that comes along) until she totally gets very lost, very far away from home. So let me tell you about what I did today - I had to go see a client, then after that I thought great I am in town, I can go shopping. So I planned exactly how I was going to get to my client's office, which shops to go to for shopping, where I would stop for a cheeky snack in the late afternoon (I had a very light lunch and got hungry at 5 pm) then I planned my route home. Every part of my journey was planned - even down to exactly where I was going to go for my cheeky late afternoon treat, I knew what I wanted, where to get it, where I was going to go. The simple reason is that my time is precious, I don't want to waste time getting lost or traveling in the wrong direction. I use my phone if necessary to plan the fastest route in order to save time.

      I don't know why you were in Punggol but 'wandering' around Punggol? Did you go there to visit a friend, or to buy something from a shop there? What brought you to Punggol? What was the purpose of your visit to Punggol? I'm sorry for being nosy but I wouldn't 'wander' around somewhere like that just for fun - I would wander around say a museum or an art gallery where there's plenty on display to stimulate my mind, but a random neighbourhood just doesn't hold the same attraction for me.

      Yes there are dangerous neighbourhoods in some US/UK cities but I simply don't see how any person would wander around so aimlessly and randomly until they put themselves in harm's way. How would they have landed themselves in that situation in the first place? Why didn't they plan their journey? Why didn't they check before hand where they were going? What I did today was just common sense: I planned my journey to make the most of my day. A long work meeting following by shopping and some great food. Even in my quest to eat something really nice, I wouldn't just wander around randomly and hope to find a nice cafe/restaurant - no, I knew what I wanted to eat, I checked on the internet their opening hours and then checked the route I needed to take to get there. Am I some kinda control freak or just a person with an average amount of common sense?

      The ONLY time when I found myself in a dangerous situation was in Hanoi when I wandered out of the old town, into a market and then emerged on the other side of the market to find myself in a very run down, poorer part of the city. So what did I do? Did I wander aimlessly into that unfamiliar part of Hanoi or did I follow my gut instinct to immediately turn around and head back to a more familiar part of the old town? I simply exercised common sense and turned back.

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    2. I was going to Uncle Ringo in Punggol's Social Innovation Park. So I took a train ride, and two bus rides, and ended up at a bus stop near Riveria LRT. After that, I walked around trying to find the SIP, and after crossing a few roads, walking on some footpaths and walking through a grassy field, I managed to find it. Afterwards, I decided to head home, and I didn't want to walk through the grassy field and get my feet dirty and muddy again so I decided to head in another direction. I actually ended up at the Punggol park connector, and I had to walk quite a bit before I ended up at the main road. From there, I found myself at Riveria LRT again. Perhaps, I am just very bad with directions and should have used a GPS.

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    3. Hi Bella, what I would have done if I had been in your situation would have been to either a) rely on technology by using one of the many apps that could help you plan a good route or b) ask for directions from a local. I would certainly have not wandered around for a simple reason - not that I would have felt any danger in a place like Punggol, but simply because I would have wasted time otherwise and my time is precious. The same principle applies no matter where you are in the world. I remember when I was going to an event in Brussels, Belgium and the event was out of town - yup, when they host such big events and need a venue, they tend to be on the outskirts of town and not in the central downtown area. So I went to the hotel reception and asked them to help me plan my route there which consisted of two trains, one tram + a 5 minute walk from the tram stop. I got the helpful staff at the hotel to email me those instructions so I have them on my phone, hence I knew exactly what to do - I simply follow the directions and I found the event venue and that's just plain common sense because I didn't want to be late for the event.

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    4. Hi Sandra, that's a long walk. But I also note that a) you did plan your route carefully considering all factors given the current circumstances and b) you were armed with good local knowledge. And I'm sure if you ever needed to go to another part of town, you would either use technology to plan your route or ask a friend for that information. Not only because you care about your safety but more to the point, your time is precious. You don't want to waste time taking a longer route.

      Who in the right mind would get lost deliberately by refusing to plan ahead? Okay, I can see how Bella ended up in a situation where she got lost in Punggol - her original route involved walking across a field and she didn't want to do that on her way back. But if I was in that position, I would either a) take out my phone and use an app to plot a route or b) just ask someone which route to take back to the station. I wouldn't just wander out aimlessly without a plan.

      But let me share what happened to me once in Tallinn Estonia, I had arrived in Tallinn, went directly to an event instead of the hotel - then when I left the event, I asked someone for directions to my hotel. There were 3 turnings I had to take and silly me, at one of the junctions, I turned left into of going right. By the time I realized, "I should be at the hotel already, I must have taken a wrong turn." So what did I do? I stopped a passing stranger and asked for help, she took out her phone and plotted the route to take for me. Then I realized where I had gone wrong and retraced my steps. That's how one would deal with such a situation in the West and Singaporeans really overestimate the crime rate in the West.

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